How do I separate emotionally from my mom? She is toxic person all around that constantly uses her financial provess to make people around her dependable and thus forcing them to pander to her. She is misanthropic and constantly shits on other people, but when called out on that plays victim.
I didn't see any of this when I was growing up I thought of her as good. It's kinda grim. We had some great moments together and every time I want to cut contact I remember the fond moments and feel pity. She can't be such a terrible person if she is occasionally good right? I forgive and keep myself attached. I have problem with letting people go in general. It took me 10 years to get over my friend betraying me and openly telling me they aren't interested. How do I even do this stuff without going insane?

the best advice i will ever give you is to get quality psychotherapy to unfuck your parental relationships . and you’ll probably ignore it or something

>>33201890
I am trying to get therapy but it's really tricky since I live below poverty line. I got some free sessions from the government but we are currently discussing completely different issues. In any case I feel like it would need her participation, but she won't come anyways.
She doesn't care, I feel like she actually wants me to fuck off but I still believe it just can't be that.

>>33201856 (OP)
1 Get job
2 Move out

>>33202490
I have already done that