Anonymous
6/12/2025, 1:08:52 AM No.33205545
I have dyslexia, OCD, and ADHD and I can't take ADHD meds because they fuck up my blood pressure and they're ineffective. So I don't take any stimulants. Not even atomoxetine. Not gonna do it.
IQ's 115, so I am not low intelligence per se.
My parents aren't rich, but middle class and are barely scraping by to pay for my undergraduate degree. But my major is STEM, highly employable, and if I play my cards right, I can live comfortably after I graduate.
I am average height, average face, etc. not ugly, not handsome. I am working out at the gym to look better, to boost my baseline attraction, just some kind of "looks maintenance".
I also put effort here and there and don't just let things go, as much as I can.
However, I have recurrent depression that's barely managed by antidepressants and mood stabilizers. However, I have made a breakthrough because I managed to somehow reduce my depression and take action enough so that I am a functioning adult and I don't let my mood or how I feel affect me as much.
I am taking extra classes that aren't certified just so I can have genuine skill after I graduate. I have to take notes, make flashcards, chunk down the instruction video over bursts of time so I can mitigate ADHD interference, and it's mentally taxing to have to do supplementary training in addition to my theoretical university work.
I am also doing stuff like developing character, ethics, having a good sense of direction, etc. all within means. Stuff of this sort can immediately turn into new age fluff, so I keep it simple and avoid overphilsophizing.
Anyway, I am feel like I am juggling 500 things at once, and that I am one slip away from fucking up big and how there are people who have better IQ, better parents, more money, better looks, better circumstances, and "tutorial island" kind of life and how they are leagues ahead of me despite not having to work 25% as hard but this is no excuse to slack around.
How to stop comparing myself to others?
IQ's 115, so I am not low intelligence per se.
My parents aren't rich, but middle class and are barely scraping by to pay for my undergraduate degree. But my major is STEM, highly employable, and if I play my cards right, I can live comfortably after I graduate.
I am average height, average face, etc. not ugly, not handsome. I am working out at the gym to look better, to boost my baseline attraction, just some kind of "looks maintenance".
I also put effort here and there and don't just let things go, as much as I can.
However, I have recurrent depression that's barely managed by antidepressants and mood stabilizers. However, I have made a breakthrough because I managed to somehow reduce my depression and take action enough so that I am a functioning adult and I don't let my mood or how I feel affect me as much.
I am taking extra classes that aren't certified just so I can have genuine skill after I graduate. I have to take notes, make flashcards, chunk down the instruction video over bursts of time so I can mitigate ADHD interference, and it's mentally taxing to have to do supplementary training in addition to my theoretical university work.
I am also doing stuff like developing character, ethics, having a good sense of direction, etc. all within means. Stuff of this sort can immediately turn into new age fluff, so I keep it simple and avoid overphilsophizing.
Anyway, I am feel like I am juggling 500 things at once, and that I am one slip away from fucking up big and how there are people who have better IQ, better parents, more money, better looks, better circumstances, and "tutorial island" kind of life and how they are leagues ahead of me despite not having to work 25% as hard but this is no excuse to slack around.
How to stop comparing myself to others?
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