>start cutting myself because I hate my body
>cuts make my body look even worse
>cut more cause I hate my body
>cuts make body look even worse

I am so fucking retarded, why can't I stop this

>>33205937 (OP)
Stop looking at your body

>>33205937 (OP)
Post scars, I bet you're scarspo.

>>33205948
I can't there are reflections everywhere
>>33205952
Noooo nobody should be doing this shit

>>33205937 (OP)
ask your therapist

>>33206004
hang up blankets over your mirrors, anon. don't worry though, im sure your cute :3

>>33206004
People do it for a variety of reasons. Self-harming is fine, as long as you aren't letting it hold you back from cultivating a healthy and happy life.
People do all kinds of crazy shit to themselves, and to others. Stop being so hard on yourself.
Also, many people are pigshit ugly and still live happy and fulfilling lives with a partner. You're probably cute and too hard on yourself.
Are you eating disordered too?

>>33206015
My mom says I look cute but I always feel like im ugly and she's just hugboxxing
>>33206030
Yeah, I started binge eating after my dad died in middle school and then in high school I started restricting and I've mainly been restricting ever since, my eating habits are heavily tied to my mood and during episodes I won't eat for like a week

I can't understand the logic behind cutting. I feel like people who do it must be retarded and just do it because they saw it on TV or something and want to be edgy

>>33206084
Do you have friends? I've known a lot of people who sh and/or having an ed, very rarely is the problem "I'm not pretty enough".
How do you feel before and after shing? Do you do proper aftercare?
I'm sorry your dad died.
>>33206142
A lot of people do it for the rush of endorphins, and to kill bad feelings from elsewhere in their lives. Or, to ground themselves in reality during panic/anxiety attacks.
Some enjoy the feeling of "punishing" themselves.
There are many reasons people sh.

>>33206154
I have online friends but irl I struggle because I'm really shy and try to make it like I don't exist
Definitely have dysphoria/ dysmorphia
I feel better and I clean it up so the wounds don't get infected

>>33206194
>I have online friends but irl I struggle because I'm really shy and try to make it like I don't exist
Real.
>Definitely have dysphoria/dysmorphia
Does validation from others mean a lot to you, or is it an inward thing?
>I feel better and I clean it up so the wounds don't get infected
Good! That's something to be happy about, anon. You're taking care of yourself, instead of just letting it fester. That's a victory to be proud of.
If you use Discord and want to talk/voice call, add me: rokos_cockatrice

Stop caring. To do that just reinforce the thought that the other thoughts that you care are gay and stupid and do something else

>>33205937 (OP)
"The Power of Positive Thinking" - Norman Vincent Peale

>>33206142
I found a very interesting description of it in this autobiographical animated film called Rocks in my Pockets by a Latvian woman who details the history of mental illness in her family going back several generations. She discusses the urge to self-harm by explaining how her depression becomes so great and all consuming that she has an intense desire to replace the existential pain of her depression with the physical pain of self-harm which can be understood and treated.
https://youtu.be/k4d7B4VA634&t=4527

Start at 1:15:25

>>33205937 (OP)
just harm yourself with drugs/alcohol like a normal person.

Ask your therapist, maybe they know?

>>33205937 (OP)
You should acknowledge the situation you find yourself in and then try to start researching and improving your body from there with the hope that eventually you will be able to achieve a perfect golden body if you hang on long enough, and that dying trying was worth it.

This is the thread for people who hate their bodies? Count me in. I don't cut myslef but I drink until vomit and eat sugar until feel dizzy in order to gain some weight

>>33206142
if you don't know how it feels to want to hurt yourself you've never experienced true pain tbqh