Anonymous
6/12/2025, 9:11:35 AM No.33207062
>>33194022
I just needed to write this somewhere. I need someone to put some fucking sense into me.
I've been a KHHV my whole life. My first --and last-- love was a BPDemon that tore me to pieces. We dated for around 4 months and I think it's the closest I'll ever get to the feeling of heroin in my body, not only it was my first time ever around a woman, but the uncertainty that came with her made everything feel like gambling.
1.5 years since we 'broke up'. Ever since then I've got a deeply rooted itch that whispers 'go date another woman...' And I've tried. But no success. Every single woman I've met and tried to flirt to has rejected me, not exactly ALL of them but one of them was AS crazy if not worse than the first one, and I'm not stepping on the same stone again. I'm not mad at them but it's just that the lack of success is making me want to throw the towel with women.
I've been talking to this girl from my friend group for a couple weeks now and I asked her out. She's blazing hot I couldn't resist, I know that women in the friends group are no good but believe me you'd have to be BUDDHA to not shoot your shot with this girl. She portrayed such style and elegance in rejecting my low-commitment question about going out that I'm genuinely impressed at how much experience women have rejecting men.
And after this --I wonder--, why even bother? Although I do know that 'actively seeking' someone is usually pointless... I just can't help the need to sleep with the warmth of a woman by my side again.
I've felt this defeated in the past. But I'm not quite there yet. I'm not THAT completely given up.
In the past I forbid myself thinking romantically about women, because I truly thought that I was simply not made for it, until that bitch came and sparked an incandescent flame in my balls.
I think I just feel frustrated and powerless. No matter what I do, no matter how much I improved since her (and I did improve), nothing ever happens.
Frustration. Powerlessness.
I just needed to write this somewhere. I need someone to put some fucking sense into me.
I've been a KHHV my whole life. My first --and last-- love was a BPDemon that tore me to pieces. We dated for around 4 months and I think it's the closest I'll ever get to the feeling of heroin in my body, not only it was my first time ever around a woman, but the uncertainty that came with her made everything feel like gambling.
1.5 years since we 'broke up'. Ever since then I've got a deeply rooted itch that whispers 'go date another woman...' And I've tried. But no success. Every single woman I've met and tried to flirt to has rejected me, not exactly ALL of them but one of them was AS crazy if not worse than the first one, and I'm not stepping on the same stone again. I'm not mad at them but it's just that the lack of success is making me want to throw the towel with women.
I've been talking to this girl from my friend group for a couple weeks now and I asked her out. She's blazing hot I couldn't resist, I know that women in the friends group are no good but believe me you'd have to be BUDDHA to not shoot your shot with this girl. She portrayed such style and elegance in rejecting my low-commitment question about going out that I'm genuinely impressed at how much experience women have rejecting men.
And after this --I wonder--, why even bother? Although I do know that 'actively seeking' someone is usually pointless... I just can't help the need to sleep with the warmth of a woman by my side again.
I've felt this defeated in the past. But I'm not quite there yet. I'm not THAT completely given up.
In the past I forbid myself thinking romantically about women, because I truly thought that I was simply not made for it, until that bitch came and sparked an incandescent flame in my balls.
I think I just feel frustrated and powerless. No matter what I do, no matter how much I improved since her (and I did improve), nothing ever happens.
Frustration. Powerlessness.
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