I heard my mom is going to call an ambulance on me soon. I'm malnourished to the point where my bones ache just sleeping. I do want to go and finally find some respite but I'm afraid that after that they might transfer me to some sort of psychiatric care ward and I'm worried that it might be a gendered space and they are going to put me with guys and that's fair I haven't legally changed anything and my hormones are gray market but that is what I'm most worried about. The more I research about it the more afraid I get but I realise that if I don't go I might actually die and I don't want to die. I don't know what I'm asking for. I'm just scared and anxious and I want help with that part. No one can help me with my current situation tho and I realise that already.

>>33209042 (OP)
Go to a fucking doctor dude.

>>33209058
It's not my call unfortunately

>>33209064
Good.
You need help from medical professionals.

>>33209076
Why

>>33209090
> I'm malnourished

That is why.

>>33209042 (OP)
Reassure yourself with the likelihood that at MOST they would hold you for three days before tossing you back. Most likely not even that.

Also drink some pedialyte or something. Geez. How did it get so bad?

>>33209042 (OP)
Do you not feel ashamed of dying like some little lamb?
Pigs don't die from malnourishment, be strong and proud like a pig.

>>33209142
>Pigs don't die from malnourishment
They do, it’s actually pretty common and sad. There’s even a part in the movie Babe about it.

>>33209114
Those 3 days could be the worst 3 days of my life
I haven't gone outside much since graduating hs. Was bullied. Felt depressed and ugly. Losing weight was motivation to keep living. Eating food felt like it made me ugly

>>33209170
If three days of not getting to have a pillow and getting called faggot by some manic depressed weirdos in group therapy are the very worst three days of your life, thats a life worth living I’d say. You’re already almost halfway there by coming to /adv/ voluntarily.

How the fuck do you get malnourished in three days time?
You should be able to go like, a week. At least.

>>33209199
I think OP’s maybe been at the malnourishment thing for years. The three days this is the standard maximum time for involuntary psychological observation periods. That’s actually when they’d be trying to treat the malnutrution.

It's a hospital. No shit they don't do whatever private roleplay thing you do.
Save it for when you're back home with whatever people want to participate.

>>33209170
>Losing weight was motivation to keep living.
Bad news, turns out that was counterproductive.

>>33209223
Oh I completely misunderstood what OP was saying.
Yeah, they need to go to the hospital.

>transitioning
>losing weight
You got it backwards. Women are mostly made of fat.

>>33209186
Halfway there to what?
>>33209199
I have been restricting calories since around age 15 I think. Since April this year my calories were <800/day and recently I lowered it to 500 and now I'm taking that every 3 days

>>33209249
Conventionally attractive women are skinny not fat

>>33209250
Halfway to being surrounded by manic depressed weirdos that call you names.

>>33209263
Yeah and that convention is wrong. Boobs and ass and thighs need fat and meat.

>>33209250
Save the money on the ambulance and call youself an uber to the hospital, so you can have extra money left over to buy yourself the food you’re gonna need to keep yourself breathing.

>>33209292
I'm on my parents insurance

>>33209042 (OP)
No offense but it sounds like you really need the help. My advice to you would be to accept the help and when you get in, focus on getting better.

You're lucky that you have people in your life that care enough about you to try and make you get help. Take it from someone else who was really sick and who's life was saved by the mental health system. Get the help and put your life back on track.

Your physical and mental well-being are extremely important.

>>33209350
Bold of you to assume insurance always covers ambulance rides.

>>33209401
I love my mom. I don't want to die because of the state that it might put her in
>>33209417
I'm on the 2nd floor of my house. I don't think I can make it down by myself. I made it to 1st last year and I almost cried going down and actually cried going up and I weighed more then than I did now. I would have to be carried down and I don't want that

>>33209417
To answer your question it does cover ambulance costs. Idk why I first went on to justify it

>>33209042 (OP)
>I'm just scared and anxious and I want help with that part.
Okay, well I can share some things I’ve been trying to help me with that kinda thing.

Stop and do a few deep calming breaths when you need to. Drink some camomile tea. Try to slip in a little honey or sweetener. Try not to count the calories. Your brain and your gut that’re making you feel so anxious need some of that fuel to calm you down.

When you can handle them, look up foods containing tryptophan. This includes: milk, turkey, salmon, almonds and other nuts, eggs, legumes, etc. Tryptophan helps the brain produce serotonin, this is a chemical that is used to regulate anxiety. Consider that the proteins in the food will be treating your anxiety levels, try to ignore the calories.

Find something else to occupy yourself with instead of looking up shit that’s making you nervous.

>>33209460
>i can’t walk down stairs
How far do you walk to get to the bathroom? And, do you get up to get yourself water, or does someone help bring it to you?

>>33209460
> I love my mom. I don't want to die because of the state that it might put her in

That's a good reason to keep going in the short term, but if you accept the help and stick with it, there will come a time where you will be able to live for yourself. I want that for you.

> I'm on the 2nd floor of my house. I don't think I can make it down by myself. I made it to 1st last year and I almost cried going down and actually cried going up and I weighed more then than I did now. I would have to be carried down and I don't want th

If you can't make it down a set of stairs, you are in dire need of medical assistance. There is no shame in having to be carried when you are in the state you are in. The emts are not going to judge you, like most people in the medical field, they want to see you get well again.

Take the help anon. A moment of shame is well worth having your quality of life back, and potentially getting the mental help you need to live a happy life.

>>33209460
Sorry to worry you more, but your mum might be in real trouble outside of even the normal being sad about it, if you die at this point. It’ll probably look like the “evil stepmom” case in connecticut, where the guy was allegedly locked up and starved by his step mother.

>>33209502
My room has an en suite and I use that. I get water and stuff from the kitchenette on the floor I'm on. I can walk short distances. I walk around my room all the time.

>>33209503
That's why I wanted an ambulance. Because no one in my family is going to carry me then.

>>33209523
She's not forcing me in here. I'm in here voluntarily.

>>33209540
>She's not forcing me in here. I'm in here voluntarily.
Yeah, see if she can convince the court of public opinion about that if you die and you can’t speak up to set the story straight.

>>33209540
> That's why I wanted an ambulance. Because no one in my family is going to carry me then.

Get the ambulance. Even if its not covered by insurance, get the ambulance. You and your family can replace money. They can't replace you. Your life is worth more than a bill.

Whatever you need to do to get to that hospital do it.

>>33209554
But people who know us know how I live/d

>>33209564
I'm probably going to. I'm going to sleep now and wait for them to come home and they might call an ambulance then. If I don't reply back here in around 5 hours then I'll probably be in the hospital then.

>>33209652
I wish you luck op. You're making the right decision by going.

>>33209656
The decision was already made for me but fine I will take it

>>33209042 (OP)
You are literally a crazy person
You should be in an asylum

>>33209669
I'm glad to hear that anon. It may not be your say whether or not you're hospitalized, but it's entirely your decision to accept the help, or just play nice until you're discharged. By accepting the help you are making a choice to change your life for the better.

They can bring you to the hospital, but the only one who can decide to take the help and work with them is you, and by deciding to fight the good fight, you are empowering yourself to change your life for the better.

I wish you the best anon. It won't be an easy fight, but the rewards are well worth it. Take it from me. I am not just an advocate for therapy. I am an extremely satisfied customer.

>>33209042 (OP)
>>33209460
Fucking die you fucking trooner scum

>>33209042 (OP)
I feel for you OP T_T
>t. Tranny recovering form an ED and SH

It’s not a big deal
Well, being in one in the hospital isn’t but fuck if I know how I got there and where it really was
Anyway for me it was an adventure

Just remember that you got yourself to where you are by listening to other people and not listening to your body which is obviously telling you to eat, not take sketchy drugs, and just be a normal faggot
what’s so difficult with being a faggot
taking drugs trying to turn your body on itself isn’t the solution
you cannot be healthy without eating correctly leaving the house and remaining sober and not taking medication that wasn’t prescribed to you

All this is is some punishment against yourself for just not being gay normally
You are punishing yourself for absolutely no reason and you have listened to lunatics telling you that you can be a different sex than what you were born with

get healthy and just be a normal gay man
they probably cannot tell you to do this anyway anymore and will just focus on the eating disorder which you clearly have
all this shit is an easy fix

if you go back to how you are now after they stay you will end up there again or worse

>just be a normal gay nothing is wrong with this

Also remember to think of these problems as solvable easy problems for you
Everyone will say oh it’s super crazy difficult and all this shit, wrong
Thinking that way makes people give up
They are easy problems with super easy solutions