I've failed to make the life I wanted for myself, so I'm going to hang myself next week. How do I make it as quick and painless as possible?

No way. Don't do it. Or at least cut and dye your hair, get tattoos, spend all your money, and eat delicious food.

>>33209279 (OP)
Pretty selfish to just kill yourself without taking as many people with you as possible. get some guns, stock up on ammo, and find a convention or something jam packed with people and just shoot into it.

use a gun

>>33209331
I don't have access to guns in my country, and I don't want to do a suicide by cop either
>>33209327
What's wrong with you
>>33209314
I'm not in the mood to do crazy stuff before, all my money is going to go to my family

>>33209279 (OP)
I won't read attention seeking threads.

Please dont

>>33209279 (OP)
Wondering this myself. I figure jumping from a high enough place is the easiest way to go about it
Why do people even consider hanging, it sounds so painful

>>33209279 (OP)
Use piano wire. Strangely available at most hardware stores.

There's no need to wait until next week, the man who intended to take his own life is now dead. You're a new person, how about joining the brotherhood and fighting (((demons)))?

>>33209592
Why?

>>33209625
You will surely die.
>S
What, No! Sleep on it for a while.

>>33209375
>I don't have access to guns in my country
are you european? why would you want to kill yourself. you have access to free healthcare and education. how did you not manage to make the life you wanted for yourself.

at least give us a story for why.

>>33209543
Jumping sounds way more terrifying, I would never be able to make the final step
>>33209592
Noted
>>33209674
The story isn't very interesting and won't give you much insight into why I'm ending it
Long story short, mental illness (schizophrenia) fucked me up and I failed every single chance I had at improving my life, I'm currently feeling miserable and the future doesn't hold anything positive for me

>Long story short, mental illness (schizophrenia) fucked me up and I failed every single chance I had at improving my life, I'm currently feeling miserable and the future doesn't hold anything positive for me

Hey man, same story.. if you want to talk, I'm here

I'd like to change my life but due to the pills I have very low energy and sleep more than 12+ hours (if nobody wakes me up and no alarm is set). After 12+ hours I feel a bit refreshed but any 9 to 5 job would require me to sleep less than 12 hours.

Also due to specific reasons I'm not very patient with people anymore. If I somehow get a job I would be very capable to tell the manager to "come one man, just write the termination letter" if he complains about something. I know this is not how it's supposed to be but I just can't bear with things like that anymore.

>>33209327
Now that's what I call based

>>33209888
In addition to my previous comment. The "pain" I have is "low energy", always being like in a state of "I wanna do something" but my low energy keeps me away from doing it.

Sometimes I'm just sitting there, wanna drink some fresh Coke out of the refrigerator and then I think "no, fuck it" because that would require me to go to a store with all those people around me in the store and talking to the cashier, etc.

>Now that's what I call based
I think that's very stupid to say.

>>33209327
lmao do you realize it is possible to get charged with Conspiracy for posting shit like this. It is not possible to post on 4chan from TOR/tails so you're fucking retarded.

like yeah I see your point, don't be a pushover to the society that probably caused all your problems, but an eye for an eye and the whole world goes blind.

>>33209279 (OP)
I failed to make the life I wanted for myself, so at 16 I told my parents that they are to give me $120 a month for Heroin else I will kill myself. That is why I am still alive at 18.

Please do not commit suicide but if you are going to anyways, don't fuck it up; failing suicide can be painful as fuck. also you'll be sent to a psychiatric unit for a month if you live in a first-world country. tried ODing on Heroin and Xanax and Alcohol, woke up with a catheter in me and that was painful as fuck having it removed.

hanging is a painful way to die. its supposed to break your neck instantly from you falling and the rope suddenly stopping but good luck not fucking that up and just having an extremely painful rope burn for 10-15 minutes while you slowly lose consciousness and die.

>>33209888
>>33209940
For me it is nonexistent willpower, I have enough energy and physical/mental faculties to do what I need to do, but for some reason I can't do anything, it's like I have no control over my body
And for some weird reason, now that I've taken the decision to end it, I feel a lot more motivated and able to do the last few things I need to do, it's like the universe is trolling me

>>33210232
>For me it is nonexistent willpower, I have enough energy and physical/mental faculties to do what I need to do, but for some reason I can't do anything, it's like I have no control over my body

How can you fix your lack of motivation or how can you gain more willpower? Question to you. What would you answer another person if you're getting asked?

>And for some weird reason, now that I've taken the decision to end it, I feel a lot more motivated and able to do the last few things I need to do, it's like the universe is trolling me

I think it's because you think you found an alleged solution to your problem. But trust me, this is not the way to go.

>>33210150
>lmao do you realize it is possible to get charged with Conspiracy for posting shit like this
its been what, a decade of me posting shit like that? when am i going to get charged with conspiracy. also, tor isn't the only proxy or proxy-within a proxy setup. so, you're a dumbass newfag.

>>33209279 (OP)
Hey I've been thinking about this too. I bought a rope about a year ago and it's just been sitting in my closet mostly. Yesterday I took it out and practiced tying it and seeing how to make it work and how it feels on me. I go to therapy and it's helped a bit and I know when I tell him my my week has been shit he's going to ask about what happened. He doesn't know I have the means to kms available and I don't want to tell him but I'm sick of wanting to die but the longer I keep trying to get better the more it seems like my only viable option is to die early.

>tor isn't the only proxy or proxy-within a proxy setup.

so you're using tor with a chained paid proxy at the end.

Hey Bro, genuine, no judgment advice here: If you are set on killing yourself, that's okay. Your body and life are your own, don't feel guilty on anyone else's account because they have the same choice with their life.

I would recommend buying a rope, seriously. Maybe not a piano wire like that guy said, people are still alive for about 40 seconds after decapitation. But if you do buy a rope, that's okay, in serious situations like this it can really help take the pressure off of you if you know you have a way out. Not to use the way out, but knowing you could if you wanted to helps a lot.

My other piece of advice is this. If you can't live for yourself, is there anyone you could live for instead? Not metaphorically speaking, but literally. Imagine if you had someone in your life wholeheartedly dedicated to helping you with anything simply because they can't live for themselves. It's a wonderful gift to bestow.

A third piece of advice: no motivation is difficult to overcome, however as weird as it might sound I think you're just stuck not doing anything you want to do, and have been for a long time. Hell it could have been so long you can't even think of anything you would want to do. Passion is life, without it life feels hollow. You need to find something you're passionate about, for me learning to program was my savior. I never knew I loved to learn, school never taught me anything I was interested in. For you it could be literally anything, from math, to volunteer work, to shoveling shit on a farm, you probably have something you like doing that brings you joy. Fuck everything else, do just that and whatever you need to do to continue doing that.

Hope you see this, and remember bro, take a deep breath, and get up. Seriously, take a deep breath and get up, it helps with decision making.

>>33209279 (OP)
Use painkillers or any drug

http://textfiles.com/fun/suicide.txt

Enjoy

I read an article about people who tried to commit suicide by jumping off the golden gate bridge, and all those that survived said they regretted it as soon as they jumped - before they even hit the ground.
I remember one guy said something like: "the moment I jumped I realized every problem in my life had a potential solution, except the problem of falling to my death."

>>33211117
sounds like we need to just start giving people near-death experiences. that'll change their minds about suicide.

>>33210403
>How can you fix your lack of motivation or how can you gain more willpower?
I can't: multiple therapists failed and meds failed. I can't just psych myself out of it, it's my brain (a physical organ) being defective

This must be so difficult for you, I'm so sorry.

>>33209279 (OP)
Nitrogen

>>33209279 (OP)
What's the life you wanted for yourself?

>>33211117
If you're smart and you know you have permanently fucked up your life why would you feel anything but dread after surviving?