i was having a conversation with one of my 2 friends (online) and she said that she has no problem letting people go. she didnt say anything relating to that sentence after that. she could get rid of me without a second thought. i dont matter to her. i cant do anything about it. i won't stop being her friend. obviously they dont know this but she and my other friend are the only things keeping me from killing myself and i would be devastated if i lost just one of them. i really thought she cared about me more. i love her so much and she could just stop talking to me if she so felt like it. how do i deal with this? i dont know what to do

>>33211141 (OP)
therapy

>>33211163
i go to therapy but my next appointment is in 2 weeks

>>33211173
call to schedule sooner

>>33211184
i cant. my therapist has stuff to do outside of her job i think and i literally cant get an earlier appointment

>>33211141 (OP)

>>33211141 (OP)
killing yourself over an online friend is crazy

>>33211141 (OP)
your not cool bro

>>33211817
what

>>33211687
i dont have any other friends

recreate picrel faggot

but honestly there's no reason to think she will just stop being your friend for no reason. just because she's supposedly capable of doing so doesn't mean she wants to or will. and you're probably better off knowing so you can learn to be ready to detach as well. you shouldn't care so much about one person that them leaving you (especially an online friend lol) drives you to suicide

tldr: stop being a fag

>>33211817
you're*

>>33211141 (OP)
You can find much better friends than a person like that. Try to make new connections with people.

How old are you? If you're 25 or older, maybe we could become contacts. Younger than that and it wouldn't be appropriate. But basically, look for more friends

>>33212940
shes a very good friend it just hurt to see her say that

>>33212944
Maybe you should look for someone who wants the same depth of connection as you. People want different things and some people are more compatible than others, not to say that you should cut this person out but make more connections, you might find a closer connection

>>33211141 (OP)
i think that youre kinda overthinking it.
one of my old friends did some fucked up shit to me and havent talked to him since.
thats probably what she meant, letting peple that dont treat her well go