>Be me, autistic and obsessed with Monster Musume
>Smoke weed after multi-month long period of abstinence
>Have episode of EXTREME religious psychosis, convinced God was talking to me and that I should kill my family to escape my mental prison
>Have neurotic lines of thinking, like that God is communicating to me through billboards and commercials
>End up going on antischizo meds and anxiety starts dying down
>Unsure if my experience was legitimate because it happened under a hallucinogen
>Nine months go by
>Decide to buy a Monster musume paperback book
>Do research on the origins of the mythological Lamia and learn she’s a greek demon
>Back of mind starts freaking out and saying that I should burn or throw away the manga
>Part of me says I should keep it as a mental exercise for me to see that nothing bad will happen
What do?

Weed causes schizophrenia

>>33216324 (OP)
Wat. Throw away the hallucinogens, not monmusu.

>>33216519
this
>>33216324 (OP)
>What do?
stop fucking niggerweeding
also stop mixing it with other meds
try to socialize more if you can

>>33216545
I’ve been clean for nine months. While I occasionally get in a funk and reminisce about the days where I would relax and get high, I’m reminded of the risks of furthering my schizophrenia, the difficulties of brainfog, and how munchies set off my weight. I don’t plan to go back to marijuana but I still feel affected from my religious psychosis episode to this day

>>33216324 (OP)
Lamia was a monster, not a demon. She was cursed by Hera, not a creation or minion of satan or some anti-god.

Schizo retard

Give it to me.

You’re schizophrenic and need professional help

Hello OP. I hope you are feeling better. It is difficult having autism and you are doing the right things. I think you should seriously reflect on the fact that you were close to killing your family. They are likely the only ones taking care of you and love you. If you really did get close to killing them, I genuinely believe it would be in your best interest to continue speaking to your doctor about this. You can always buy the manga again, but you won't get another family to take care of you. I would avoid the hallucinogenics and try to take steps to lead a healthy lifestyle (diet and exercise). It is never too late to turn a new leaf. Your psychotic episode may have felt profound in the moment, but was likely an effect of unbalanced brain chemistry. Focus on yourself and don't get caught up reading about demons, angels, etc. Instead try to find ways to be a better person to help yourself and your loved ones. It is far more fulfilling and will lead to long-term happiness.

>>33219760
Im feeling much better now that I have schizo meds. For clarification, I never tried to kill my family. I just had every fiber of my being telling me to kill her. Looking back, I now sympathize with people who accidentally get into psychosis and end up hearing voices because now I fully understand what they went through.

I don’t ever plan on going back to marijuana. From what Ive read, my psychosis is an indicator that I’m genetically predisposed to schizophrenia and any further use could potentially trigger full blown schizophrenia. That’s just something I can’t risk

>>33220523
I’m delighted to hear this. Truly happy for you. I think you are on the right track. Regarding monster musume, how are you feeling about it now? Perhaps remembering that occasional bouts of anxiety/dread will pass will help prevent spiraling thoughts. In any case, I think it’s entirely up to you whether you think keepig the manga around is worth it

Wow what a retard