Life truly is a game

But some people get to stuck up in the character they created and life they lived to much to be able to depersonalize and return to the home screen

Or is that just me? I feel like I’m just playing a character and the “real me” literally doesn’t exist I dont think I’m apart of society anymore

I quite like this new train of thought tho, I feel as if I can separate from everything

But now I can’t do things, I know society is an act and I have to fit in a character

>>33217987 (OP)
you’re just chronically online overdosing in dopamine. Log off the internet for some time. You will realize time still moves slow and there’s so much to do. Explore new hobbies or interests

>>33218007
I think killing myself would be a much more effective and simpler solution actually

>>33218007
>You will realize time still moves slow
No it doesn't
Every week just fucking fly by
If anything, time is accelerating as you get older

>>33217987 (OP)
Don't remember where I was
I realized life was a game
The more seriously I took things
The harder the rules became
I had no idea what it'd cost
My life passed before my eyes
I found out how little I accomplished
All my plans denied

>>33217987 (OP)
>Or is that just me? I feel like I’m just playing a character and the “real me” literally doesn’t exist I dont think I’m apart of society anymore.

It’s masking. Lots of people mask for different reasons. The longer you wear that mask, the more the mask starts to wear (you). Thats where you get the feeling of having no-self, no ‘real-you’. Its because for whatever reason, you’ve had to put up a social performance to hide aspect(s) of your character away from people. Or, alternatively, hiding voids from people. Aspects that you never could develop. Whether it’s a bad aspect, or a lack of important ones, the outcome is the same - masking keeps people at an emotional distance so they can never find out.

And the common reason to avoid being found out it is fear. Fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, fear of judgement. Masking keeps that risk away.

But the trade-off is you remain at an emotional distance from everyone. That means no feeling of connection. Which means you do not feel like a part of society, or fit in anywhere.

When this happens, you no longer feel like a real person. Because the masking compounds with the sense of disconnection. No people interact with your real self = you start to believe its because you don't have one.

So the solution is to mask off. Let yourself be socially ugly. Allow risk of rejection or social fuck ups. Those who embrace you, connect with them, those who shun you, good riddance to them. Do that and you find your spot in society.

>>33217987 (OP)
Go outside, literally as well as cognitively. For starters, it is highly unlikely that picrel is your current, outdoor environment. It *is* highly likely that you spend all your waking time glued to stupid games and the Internet.