For as long as I can remember, since I was a child, ive always had this incessant need to lie down, on my bed, and rock my body back and forth, and sort of hit my head against my pillow. I cannot even do activities that I enjoy doing because of the overwhelming urge to do this, I can do it places other than my bed, the head hitting and rocking body motion, but I prefer to do it in my bed. If I don't do it, its like an itch I can't fucking scratch, where I just want to get up and leave and go lie down and hit my head against a pillow or my bed while listening to music, I also often fantasize during this. This all started when I was a kid, it used to be to go to sleep but I stopped as I aged, but I have never been able to shake this, literally nobody else I've ever known or seen has talked about this? What is this? I don't think i could hold a job because of this. The overwhelming urge. I can't imagine how people live where they just sit or lie down and not move or rock back and forth at all.

Maybe its OCD? Sounds a lot like it.

>>33218743 (OP)
Probably some kind of enjoyment of motion. Have you been tested for ADHD before?

>>33218743 (OP)
classic autistic trait

>>33218743 (OP)
It means you're a spastic