How do you not get angry with dating. I dive in head first like a tard. Women are either great but don't want me or have multiple issues and we date until she fucks up. I take things too seriously but I can't help it. I don't like sleeping around with randoms. I can't enjoy it sexually and sometimes can't even get hard eith strangers.

Then i see girls online complaining about guys only wanting sex, being fuckboys, or dishonest. But I've been doing that the whole time and im 26 with hardly a positive experience.

Any emotion i feel is wrong. It is like im supposed to be a suave sean connery type and just fuck hoes but that just isn't me i tried it but can't do it anymore i want something real but it never comes.

What do I do? Do i stick to my guns or do I really have to be this laid back unserious person that I've never been able to be before?

It's good you take things seriously, but reassess how long you're taking to get to certain stages in the relationship and where/how you're meeting these girls

Moreover at least you're honestly getting action, it's more than some people

What you see online is pushed to you because it's bait. Not everyone feels like that

>>33221715 (OP)
>>Then i see girls online complaining about guys only wanting sex, being fuckboys, or dishonest.
selection bias
these people are complaining because they're meeting fuckups
the people who aren't meeting fuckups aren't complaining online

I just don't engage with it. Maybe I'll try next year, but right now I don't have any interest in it. I've lost enough weight that I finally don't feel repulsive, but even then when I'm out and about while dressed nicely, I see women and I just have zero urge to try. Zero interest in getting to know them because I know it'll just be tiring and at the end I'll be alone again anyway.

>>33221715 (OP)
say you've started going to a local weekend sport's league on your neighborhood
there's always that weirdo that takes those low stakes scenarios very seriously and ruins the fun for everyone else
yes sometimes the small league champions get invited to something more important and that's when they should take it more seriously.
dating is the same among normal people, you shouldn't lie and fuck around while trying to date someone if you don't want her to do the same but you shouldn't also put all your effort and hopes into something without even knowing if it's going to work out.
Seriousness and commitment go into a crescendo, not at full intensity from the very start
that also ruins the relationship because you don't see advancement and it's very tiring very fast. girls who are like I love you I wanna marry you on the second date are very tiresome too.

Why was I the only one expecting Bruce Willis in OPs picture?