>go to bar in my neighborhood and everyone acts like im scary or an asshole
>go to restaurants waiters imply they're going to spit in my food
>try to hit on women they dont want me
>no job no experience huge resume gap
>no car
>never lived alone
>used to neet now have nothing
only thing i have is disability and im afraid they're going to remove it
im honestly thinking about going downtown at night and getting some hoodlum to stab me to death or shoot me because I don't see a way out of this.
I know I need to volunteer or get some marketable skill
I need an income quickly but I don't have a car to uber, I don't have a car to get to volunteering for resume building or even getting a basic job.
I feel completely hopeless about my situation.

the only place near me enough to work at, I talked to them for weeks trying to get some work and they just jerked me around lying to me instead of even telling me they didnt want me

>>33232614 (OP)
Is there a FedEx or Amazon near you? Can you pass a drug test, do you have a drivers license? Ever considered a paid CDL program? They'll put you in a hotel for training if you can pass a hair follicle test

>>33232614 (OP)
When all else fails.
The morgue pays.
Just don't fuck the corpses and youre good.

>>33232614 (OP)
you're not that important you're either off your meds or did something nasty to people in the past or are going to those places without taking a shower, there is no way people are taking time out of their days to antagonize you for no reason.

>>33232664
I have a license but I cannot drive for shit I've been putting off buying a car because I think I'm gonna get ripped off and its most of my savings

>>33232679
Idk if they'd hire me with such a massive gap in resume and also I just dont want to do that

>>33232689
you dont have to be important for random people to dislike you

>>33232695
>cannot drive for shit
You'll get better. I've been in a wreck and backed into someone's garage door and I still have a job.

>>33232700
people will dislike you all right but they won't lose their jobs by spitting in your food unless you're the town's rapist or something.

>>33232614 (OP)
>only thing i have is disability and im afraid they're going to remove it
they are, the senate "big beautiful bill" proposed even bigger cuts than the house version to medicaid and SSDI, all to give billionaires slightly lower taxes.

>>33232703
alright thanks thats a good idea.

>>33232724
alright take a breather man and then fuck yourself faggot

>>33232780
i dont know much about that but at least trump is helping us white folk

>>33232614 (OP)
You write a grab bag of problems and act like it all just happened for no reason at all. Gee, unlucky you! Create a plan, moron.

>>33232614 (OP)
you must be a white male

>>33232614 (OP)
you have a chip on your shoulder and everyone can see it. you're most likely angry at yourself and desire to take it out on others. get your life on track and process your bitterness. don't worry you don't have to do anything. billions of years of evolution will make sure that you'll keep living and surviving. most suicidal people regret their suicide attempts after the temporary emotions pass.

>>33232981
>alright take a breather man and then fuck yourself faggot
?
have I said anything that is not true tho?
people won't risk losing their jobs over spitting the food of a random nobody who's on disability, you have to actively antagonize people for them to risk it and it being worth it.

>>33233485
they have problems with me they sense im in a bad mood and then just make it worse and i cant trust or like anyone anymore because of the way people act around me and each other its so fucking stupid i hate everyone. i fucking hate everyone i hate everyone because i cant make friends and i have to cajole everyone into doing anything for me. I hate myself most of all now because I CANT FUCKING DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY ITS LIKE IM WALKING IN FUCKING CEMENT QUICKSAND WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPPOOKSWEALJIHRHJLTHLJWETGHLJGAEWHLJTELHNK

>>33233666
yes. the jews did this

>>33236749
yes. I'm angry at myself and hurt i hate everyone and everything deep down inside you do too you're just asleep to it.

>>33236796
people will absolutely do that and they threaten to do it to me all the time. especially teenagers and men will do it. I don't like people even people who are friendly to you will fuck you over and i love hate it i love it when im winning and i dont like that its so fucking stupid what the hell is the point of anything what it

>>33236836
>you're just asleep to it.
i know already know about my hate thank you very much

>>33236836
you're paranoid and probably suffering a schizo episode.

>>33232614 (OP)
You might be mentally ill and perceiving things that aren't there. I don't normally say this to people in my life but on 4chan we see a lot of that.

>>33236855
and people become hateful and fearful when u challenge their beliefs or who they think they are

>>33236924
and im perceving things that might become there but sometimes they are there so i see them before hand i want to go leave to where im from the place before i saw it