>>33234043 (OP)You see the world differently. This is an advantage. Focus on using your "illness" to create a happy worldview. This way no matter what happens you'll be feeling fine. Also, find ways to leverage your madness into something useful. The arts are popular, but it's also fun for debate, science and anything else that is thought intensive as long as you can keep reality and your mind separate. Avoid estoteric stuff as it'll only make you worse.