My ex-boyfriend broke up with me two months ago. A month after the breakup he contacted me and tried to get back together and I, like the stupid bitch that I am, gave him space to redeem himself. In two weeks of talking and sneaking out I found out that he had sex with another girl during the time we didn't talk. Not just any girl, she's the worst option of all, the ugliest and most disgusting I've ever seen. This girl in question was the lover of my best friend's ex (her ex cheated on her with the girl who later slept with my ex). She brags about picking up committed men among other things, in general she is disgusting and bizarre.

After I found out about this I was very disgusted, I cried a lot, desperately, and I cut contact with my ex again. Sex is a sensitive topic for me, I have always respected my limits a lot about it. When I was younger I swore that I would save myself for the love of my life or that I would stay a virgin as long as I could for the "charm".

I recently got in touch with my ex again and it wasn't bad... even though I constantly feel bad about the whole thing I'm happy to talk to him. Yesterday he invited me to his house to have sex, which I swore would never happen again. But it happened, and it was really good... I hate myself for it, I don't know exactly how I should feel. I try to think that these are things in life, but at the same time I think I should feel like a stupid whore, which is what I am.

>>33234332 (OP)
>I think I should feel like a stupid whore
No, you shouldn't. Because you already are a whore—not just a whore, but a dick-devouring whore.
>which is what I am.
Yes, absolutely! At least, you are self-aware of that.

>>33234332 (OP)
1) yeah the girl who did that is a terrible person. But I also see the mechanism of cheater picking a discusting woman for himself to cheat with on his spouse, since he wouldn't develop an emotional connection. He just wanted to fulfill primal sexual need. It makes it even worse about him and makes me feel sorry for you even more.

2) could I know how did you get to know he did that?

3) You did a mistake. at first, dont cross into the same river again. Secondly, you should not have sex with anyone now unless you marry that person so you're 1000% sure of that man not being a cheating dude etc.

You're not stupid whore but you're a lost person with emotional problem which needs adressing. Just understand your mistake and dont repeat it. peace

>>33234332 (OP)
I dont think you are a stupid whore. But you should have more self respect and leave this loser who wants to bang other girls without regard for your self worth and mental health in the dust

>>33234332 (OP)
I really don't have the answer, but I know ignoring red flags isn't healthy for yourself. If you see something or multiple things in that relationship or connection or whatever you'd call it that really bother you that deeply you should either express them or open yourself up to people other than him.

>>33234358
Someone told a close friend of mine and he told me

>>33234332 (OP)
Girl here, 27 years old. When my ex cheated on me, my self esteem and sexuality just got DESTROYED and I needed 2 years of therapy to stop acting like idiot. Go get help