I have brain damage, and it occasionally results in waves of symptoms lasting weeks/months that can be crippling.

This seems to be less common over time but it csn still happen, especially if I face extreme stress.

I get disability, I get more than many who got disability young. I get a bit over $1800.

I hate being poor and wanna try pursuing a career again(and thus losing my disability) but I worry I couldn't hold down a job and would need to re-apply again and be homeless for an extended period.

I hate being poor, I want a family but I could never afford one as is. I grew up with most of my family being dead or wanting nothing to do with me.

I just want enough money to be loved and have people to love.

What do I do?

Either work with an organization that focuses on putting disabled people to work, or apply for jobs and obtain accommodations for your disability. If you're in burgerland, employers must provide accommodations for any employees that have a documented disability.

>>33234518 (OP)
Money doesn't buy love. If she can't love you poor, she doesn't love you: just your money. You also can love people not related to you. Make a found family of others like you. It's healthier than expecting people who don't exist yet to fulfill your needs for love.

As to money? Freelance or contractor work lets you earn when you can. Keep it low and you won't lose disability. Save what you earn as extra and work your way up slowly until you have two years worth saved up as cushion. Then try working if you think you can.

>>33234535
I sometimes get weeks of severe insomnia where I am awake days at a time and am non functional.

I haven't had this for over over a year but it could always happen again and no employer is gonna tolerate that.

>>33234552
I want money so I can afford a decent home and provided should I have a kid.

Not in a I wanna be rich way, but I want enough money to thrive.