18f, im fat and currently losing weight. But i have strechmarks and will probably have loose skin. I have cellulite in my thighs and my arms are fat. I will never find a boyfriend, whats the easiest way to kill myself without a gun? I cant do cop by suicide either.

Not with that attitude you can't.

Assuming you're American because of the gun comment.

If you're 18f losing weight, there's a good chance much of your skin will still be stretchy enough to tighten up as you get a bit older. I'm currently also losing weight and I've definitely had the same thoughts before. Even if it's not, the stretch marks are only there to show that you've gained the discipline to lose the weight. They're really not a bad thing unless you think they are.

The problem is that if you think the stretch marks are a super big deal, because of American health care, it's going to be hard to get surgery that helps to correct the loose skin. Reconstructive or other surgery is very expensive.

You're probably going to be fine as long as you continue to lose weight. Once you figure out how to deal with the self hatred you're going to go places. Getting started is the hardest part, continuing on the right path is just a long-term mental game after that.

Good luck, anon.