my whole life I've always felt overly deferential and very passive in general. I had very little of that teenage rebellion thing in me, hardly ever broke out of the boundaries, would pretty much always do as I'm told when I was a kid, accepted most of the advice my parents would give me, and it took me far too long to notice that most of it was pretty lousy life lessons that more often than not didn't really help me in life.
The problem was that whenever I did go out of my way to break that mold and do things differently I'd almost always harm myself in some way. Maybe it's genetical, or environment-coded in some way?