>>33245855it's a rhetorical question, anyway
getting over something debilitating can be a feast of pleasure to just have won yourself back
a crazy thing to tell someone suicidal-adjacent, sure--but if you have no sense of peace and gratitude for all you've won maybe it's time to lose
and before you run away with that notion, my suggestion is to maybe open yourself to take some sensible risks that have a big upside, take more 20% chance opportunities if only to taste defeat at your own hands before a loss is assigned to you