i want to kms. i just turned 18 recently and went to a local shooting range to get a membership but it takes way too long and there r other nuances to it, other public ranges only have rifles and they r locked so no way i could do sum w that. i want to leave w peace and as painless as possible so i cant hang myself or jump, it’s too much terror for me. maybe some pills+ alcohol combo that anybody knows? i tried to do so w antidepressants when i was 16 but it was wo alco and just in general it didnt work out (not at all). so if anybody knows something that i can mix w alcohol to get a lethal combo AND something that i can legally buy in pharmacy PLS do tell. (its a second post so a lil update) i have rly poor health, underweight, i sleep a lot and from cutting myself i feel so dizzy lately SO i think if i drink pills i will go unconscious quickly but i need to know for sure what pills wont cause me agony for hours. its not like im looking for reasons not to do it, i know that even if its painful it will end at some point so whatever but yea, still i dont want to experience panic/heart attack, i want peace AND i wanna make sure it kills me. i dont wanna wake up w permanently damaged brain.

>>33246454 (OP)
I'm not reading this lmao. Hope your thread gets 404'd. Fuck off

My friend, I have no clue what you're going through but please reconsider. I'm 18, and I've had those thoughts too being so empty and stressed/anxious but I'm still here.
Also lastly remember I care and love you.