A week ago i made a thread about quitting adderall prescribed for my ahdd. I've stuck to that and I think it's been a week and a half since i've last taken it.
But everything is falling apart now. I've missed a couple deadlines and had a few last-minute close calls already. I'm worried that I'm going to fuck everything up. I really should've had a plan. I can't handle my life anymore i feel like a retarded child that just got dropped into an adult's life but i know i should be accountable for my own actions. And I'm almost out of monsters and my stomach hurts from drinking so many of them daily
Should i take the adderall again so I have another chance to figure everything out? Or does this sound like an addict making excuses to go back to his vice?

>>33251148 (OP)
You don't quit a prescription drug cold turkey like that anon. You go to the doctor who prescribed it, tell them you want to stop, and have them ween you off it.

Go back to your doctor, tell him what you're doing, and how long you've been doing it, and resume with his help and guidance. Don't go it alone anon. That's quite literally what your insurance is already paying the doctor for.

>>33251170
yea i guess i will but i feel very defeated... plus i thought since its already been a week and a half i should be completely weaned off of it already

>>33251148 (OP)
A week is not long enough. Not only is there a period of withdrawal, but after is a period of your brain learning to again function as normal without the drug. Also, replacing one drug with another (Adderall for caffeine) is a dumb idea.
What you should have done, was spend your time on Adderall building systems of action and habits for living without the Adderall, and then slowly wean off the pills, relying on the habits you've built to keep you functional.

>>33251240
There's no need to feel bad. Life is all about falling and getting back up. Go to your doctor, let him know what you where doing, how long you've been cold turkey, and come up with a plan with him.

I don't know about Adderall, but it can take -months for some psyche meds to fully leave your system, and it's generally a good idea to have some other med to fall back on.

Tell your doctor why you want to fully stop taking Adderall, what it does to you, what negative effects it has on you, and while he's helping you properly ween off it so you're not torturing yourself, he might have better alternatives that help you with your symptoms, without harming you.

It took me almost a full decade to find exactly what meds worked for me, without serious side effects. I have scitzoeffective disorder and autism. You need to keep in contact with your doctor, be fully honest with him about how the medicine you're on is affecting you, and really advocate for yourself.

It's a bitch to to, but the results are well worth it.

>>33251240
>i thought since its already been a week and a half i should be completely weaned off of it already
You thought way wrong

>>33251148 (OP)

said this in a similar thread, but you did it wrong, anon.

You're suppose to use the meds to stop/arrest your paralyzing and destructive behavior.

Then analyze/recognize that behavior and come to terms with it, then work on behavioral strategies and mental tools to deal with it as you work your way off the meds.

>>33251269
>What you should have done, was spend your time on Adderall building systems of action and habits for living without the Adderall, and then slowly wean off the pills, relying on the habits you've built to keep you functional.
I don't really know what the good habits are. I remember people mentioned timing everything for structure last thread though. I guess I should start reading.
>>33251313
Yea you're right thank you for being helpful. And I'm glad you found what works for you.
A big reason i tried quitting cold turkey was because ive been getting anxious that everything ive done in life has been because of adderall, and if i somehow lost access to it id be completely screwed. I still feel like shit because it's like i just confirmed that this week but im going to sleep it off for now and probably have a better mindset tomorrow
>>33251427
so i've learned kek

>>33251148 (OP)

I took cylert (old shit) for 10 years, as a kid. stopped it aboot 17. (relativly) unmedicated ever since. sure... I did H for a couple years, and smoked weed for 20+ years, and binge drank periodically and floated a functional level of alcoholism, but I'm chem-free now. I still space out, attention span of a crack baby, forget what I'm saying mid-sentence. I don't know how my wife deals with it.

strangely successful: Hot wife, homeowner, tradeworker, debt-free, savings, retirement & I manage our finances. far from "wealthy" but better than lots of the Normies.

>>33251659
good thing. cylert was banned

>>33251618
im having trouble recognizing it because when I'm on adderall I seem to be doing okay. But when I'm off i guess I'm not very self-aware.

>>33251681

its one thing to just move on while you're on it because you got shit to do. But unless you build coping mechanism that work while you're off of it, you'll never get off the stuff.

partnering with a mental health professional can help. if you must go it alone, then you need to not spend your time on the stuff doing stuff but actually reflecting on certain behaviors and then building habits that you stand a better chance sticking to when off the stuff.

>>33251652
>I don't really know what the good habits are
Think of all the things you need to in a day, and all the things you need to do in a week. Going back on Adderall to help you organize this will help, btw. Things ranging from self care (food, personal hygiene, exercise, and leisure time,) home care (take out trash, cook, sweep, etc.,) and work. Break tasks down to be done during certain periods of time. Keeping to a strict morning ritual in particular is good because it sets the tone for the day. Never linger in bed, especially on your phone. If you notice you have a natural inclination to get certain tasks done at certain points of the day (ie dishes right after morning tea/coffee, or taking the trash out right before bed,) stick to that. Anything that makes it easier or more natural is good. Make sure to include some variety of leisure time throughout your scheduled day. Reading, a game, a sweet treat. Having a physical checklist you write out every morning if the day's to-do, and checking it off the moment you complete a task (even the small and tedious, like make the bed,) will give your brain a small hit of dopamine each time and encourage the habit.

>>33251742
>>33252069
Thank you both. I'm going to come back to these posts in the morning and come up with a plan. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go back on adderall and slowly wean off that way. lesson learned.