i just met one of my friends friend because she told us how weird they are and we wanted to talk to them ourselves. i cant believe she would be willing to befriend such a lowly excuse of a human being and then then go on to say shit like "i have no problem letting people go" which is an actual thing she just dropped in a conversation we had not long ago. its like im being compared to this fucking retard. as if being told that i dont matter to her and she could just stop being mmny friend in an instant wasnt enough i have to deal with the knowledge that she is friends with people lilke this. she has no care for who she befriends. i could be at the lowest of the low in her huge ass group of friends and i wouldnt know because she just talks to anyone. how do i know im not just another lab rat that she keeps around just ebcause she thinks im weird???

>>33251901 (OP)
I won't read this wall-of-text mumbling over nothing.

>>33251959
k

>>33251901 (OP)

this makes no sense. whom are you referring to that is keeping you around as a lab rate?

>>33251901 (OP)
It sounds like you're really worried about being disrespected or given a low rank by this friend of yours. Why is that? And what's wrong with this friend of hers that you have such a stigma against them?

>>33252056
im not worried about being disrespected or being a "low rank". im worried about being disposable. how do i know that if shes willing to be friends with the person who i talked about then she isnt just being my friend foe the amusement? i value her to no end. she is one of my 2 friends so knowing that she doesnt care about me as much as i care about her hurts. and i dont want to go into detail about her friend. im not being bisaed in any way when i say that they are WEIRD. objectively strange. and their presence could make anyone uncomfortable

>>33252086
Relationships are valued across a variety of domains but some people believe every relationship has an imbalance where the total value perceived by one party outweighs that of the other. If true, that would mean every relationship is imbalanced in this way only to varying degrees. There are things you can do to improve the balance and reduce the likelihood of falling out. That's gonna require your own creativity and resources. Far as your friend having more friends than you, that's a common mathematical effect that most people experience. If you have even an average amount of friends, it's most likely that your friends have more friends than you. The average might be three close friends or something like that. It's just a mathematical effect. If you still perceive this as a problem, you can solve it by making more of them. Being crucially dependent on your friend (what happens if they abandon me) can be addressed by reducing that crucial dependence and by doing some of the stuff I mentioned above.

There's the dry rundown of what's going on, but I think your fear of abandonment and fear of being like this person is coming from somewhere in your mind. It's not coming out of nowhere. Abandonment and being assigned a low rank by your peers is objectively scary but some people are just not worried about, whether they're very popular or not popular at all. There's a range of how much people are worried about these things, and it usually comes from life experiences and inner machinations.