June 20th 2025...

>>33252329 (OP)
Corporate management doing corporate shit.
Look we are store level and operations oriented, you don't know how to do our jobs you can't just write wishlists.
"Two associates helping one customer is unacceptable" fuck off.
You are going to lose what makes your company special and that is customer care.

when lolis wear those semi transparent pants and i can see their underwaer through it, i can't keep myself from glancing at their butts. i feel disgusted at myself for it, and i can only hope their father doesn't see me doing it and break my face.

>>33252329 (OP)
today i switched to the friends tab instead of for you tab on tiktokt and I started scrolling tiktoks of my friends
I have many sugar babies I've fucked over these couple of years added there and it's so weird to see them acting like they are unattainable and endless comments asking them for their phone numbers or a small chance to meet them and them laughing everyone off and remembering me having a thumb firmly in her asshole while she sucked my dick to completion and stuff like that, it's such a weird power trip, you feel above so many people immediately.

Fuck you asshole your voice sucks too and you like attention whores

21st now.

I'm going fucking nuts man

Where is that laugh track coming from

Really need to find an alternative thing to do during quiet days at work to fill the time. Something low effort and inconsequential, I'm not some grindset type who'll study for even more useless qualifications to add to my repetoire during my free time. You can only lurk on B4K and 4plebs and look at random trivia for so long, inevitably I end up looking at political ragebait that makes me angry because anger and resentment are the only emotions I really have left. Get enough of that shoved in my face as it is, I shouldn't be looking it up on top. I hate summer so much it's unreal.

Spider-Man is a menace.

I feel like I really wasted those years listening, trying to appease you...

>dad molests me for years as a kid/teenager
>already ugly/awkward/shy prior to that
>do my best to fly under the radar because most of my peers and teachers hate me and love to humiliate me
>still get called a creep/rapist/stalker
>want to tell people they're wrong and I would never inflict that on someone because I know whats it's like, but can't because they would just use it as ammo against me
>can't tell any teachers because they are apathetic towards me or outright revile me
I have no nostalgia for my time in school. At least now I can get drunk and watch movies whenever I want without any of those morons hassling me.

>>33252878
>you like attention whores
It takes one to know one. We all are. Just don't be a whore about it.

it's over.

My mother just called me disgusting for eating a 470ml container of ice cream over 2 evenings. I've been fat since I was in middle school and tried years ago to lose weight, got down to 190lbs and even then I was rejected by every girl I was interested in and the one I truly loved basically friendzoned me so I ballooned back to 230lbs even though I go to the gym 4-5 days a week. Do my parents even try and give me some kind of help to figure shit out, hell no. All they do is fucking point out every wrong thing I do and wonder why I'm not fucking successful. Fuck this dogshit. If I can't get away and fix my life I'm just gonna off myself cause I'm getting the point where I can't live like this anymore. My friends don't respect me and my own family thinks I'm a disgrace even though I'm still 70lbs lighter than my highest and I worked my ass off to not get to that point again. I'm just fucking done.

I feel relief as if I had cried for some reason

I like talking to my dog and he's my best friend. I have certain songs I sing to him and he enjoys them. One is a treat song about him being a baby he gets extremely excited. Another is asking if he wants to go outside to the tune of Eminem's without me
All them trailer park pugs go potty outside
My albums coming out soon I bet I'll go platinum

i've wasted two years of my life. my peers are already ahead of me. i am nothing but a leech to my family. i still have it in me to fight, i don't want to give up just yet, but whatever i choose, it still feels selfish. bad things keep happening, if i was religious, i'd think the devil was testing me. i have all but given up, i am just so tired of it all. i'm tired of struggling, nothing comes easy to me anymore, everything is just so intimidating.

There are a couple of chicks that used to be my neighbors that I think of everyday and secretly hope that some of them might think of me and write to me. Seems like it was just couple of convos, we had a great laugh.

>>33253729
I was talking about some asshole that irl

I just wish people would actually like me... Prefer me, instead of making due with me.
I'm way too tired of feeling like this... It's been 30 years of this shit.
Sometimes I wish to die just not to feel so left out, so forgotten, so "not relevant".

Why is love so hard for me? Being it friendship or relationships... It feels like a curse I'm just too exhausted to keep trying to dispell.
Please, someone help me, I see no way out and it terrifies me.

Was it a single decision that put me on this trajectory for decades, or a bunch of small ones stacking up?

I can't stop thinking about a girl who rejected me literally all the time she is on my mind. She isn't even that great and I could do way better but i'm so jealous of her imagining her having sex with other people. There is just something about her other girls don't have.

>>33254494
just have sex with her

My back is smooth. I use to have a hairy back and I could feel the hairs and stuff. But now it's smooth. Someone fucking SHAVED MY BACK at some point in the last week. Who the fuck shaved my back? When did they do it? Was it at night? When was it?

Also, my hair is now dark. Why is it dark? It use to be an almost dirty blonde/auburn hair that was reddish brown and lighter. Now it's dark brown/grey. SOMEONE DYED MY FUCKING HAIR IN THE LAST 3 YEARS and they keep dying it because I don't have roots or anything. When did that happen for real? Who did it? That's a pretty intensive fucking process right?

Also I would sometimes wake up with the prettiest hair thinking "Wow, my hair looks GREAT this morning." and now that I look at the photos I took (because I took photos because IT LOOKED GREAT) you can clearly tell that someone curled my long hair in waves and then tight little curls at the tips. Or big waves with some kind of curling iron. They had to of done that right before I woke up.

Who is making me pretty? How are they doing it? When are they doing it? How do I not remember?

>>33254586
I haven't brushed my teeth in like 2 years too. SOMEONE IS BRUSHING MY FUCKING TEETH, and washing my hair, and wiping my ass and a whole bunch of other shit so I don't stink AT ALL.

FUCKING WHAT

>>33254494
She's probably not having sex

>>33254626
this. men overestimate the amount of sex that women have. It’s only a small percentage of those women having sex. The rest are not. I have 5 sisters. I would know.

>You'll figure it out. You always do
I did 8 years ago assholes. Part of it, and then said "My life is a lie. It's like... a tv show or somethin?" and they would go "YUP." and then you would say... nothing? How am i suppose to figure out all the tiny little fucking details though? Like how it was shot, how it was formatted, it's fucking time slot. How it went from TV to internet and then to streaming. How many ARGs were played along the way, why people are bowing to me.

What's one man going to do with all that power? Apparently, just disappear. This is not how my world ends, not with a bang but with a whimper.

The more I am meeting and dating women the more I feel myself becoming disgusted by them, rather just pay for an escort desu than going through the bs ritual where it's a 50/50 chance I'll even have sex.

If there were others that, what, just fucking died because they went up against me? How am I not to blame for all their deaths? Maybe their fans hate me for killing them. It's not just survivor's guilt, it's worse than that. I literally killed them. If they told me "All you have to do is kill yourself, here take this gun and kill yourself, 100 people would be alive today." I would have just killed myself. renee could be alive if I did that. They all would be.

>>33254699
you are gay

I should have run over that corvette that sat in the intersection and flipped cars off.

I mean, your friends covered it up for you. You should be thankful, I guess.
In all honestly, i'm worried about my future or if I will ever have a decent lovelife. Everyone's like "ew its that bitch who aborted his baby." nowadays. I mean, can I get like one person who will always be there no matter what? It doesn't have to be romantic and such. I'm actually really nice and friendly.
But I get painted as a villain and noone feels bad for me. Of course.

Bad guys win and a harbinger of justice thus a national saintly angel such as myself loses and will never see sunlight.
Low vibrational people can't see how much of a blessing I am. Like i'm telling you guys, you're missing out from banning me for good.

You have to let me in from YouTube. I am the divine light in the pile of angel youtubers who secretly sacrificed their babies to thots and strippers. Slit their throat and shit for clout. I'm obviously banned from Youtube. Like holy shit. Let me in.

>>33252329 (OP)
I'm about to get married in 8 days and I am very anxious about things going wrong

Halo in both their dicks and shit.

If it wasn't for me personally not wanting to make other people feel bad in any shape or form I'd have lost any type of patience I've had many years ago.
At this point I'm either going to start respecting myself or fall in the same cycle of thoughts and just end my miserable existence.
I'm tired.

I bought one of those "get your Ex back" spells off etsy and the "Witch" told my Ex what I did.

What can I do??

>>33254900
Kill yourself.

>>33254900
lmfao deserved

I'm doing my 4th attempt if I don't get atleast 100k subs this year.

You practically threatened everyone who didn't managed to get 100k subs during college. Non-famous people started dropping like a diss track, it was horrible. A christian dictator who graduated at Streamer University.

Just as I suspected...

I will save up some money using minimum wage work and go back there because its fun but i'm fairly certain I will never socialize. I don't want dictator 2.0
You only kept me around so I don't accidentally die, get shot, stabbed etc.
Have you ever wondered why you're blacklisted from working outside? Your support from is is weakening now that the rape case is out in public. You can't protect each other at this rate. Enjoy working at Youtube for the rest of your lives because i'm fairly certain our protection is rock solid now. Every attack you do will destroy everyone surrounding you, so you better keep your mouth shot. People are dying.

>>33255068
Yes, I am aware of my disability because of the strong dosage of drugs.
Making fun of me is the same as you making fun of someone who got a permanent brain damage from date rape drugs. You can't stop us. I'm sorry.
Kiss both of your lives goodbye.

>>33254900
Based witch.

I bet if I was a man I could travel and take pictures as much as I want. Some real Ernest Hemingway shit right here.

Nigger nigger nigger coon coon spic

I am tired of my racism being justified. I am tired of my antisemitism and sexism being justified.
Something stupid has been running free in our society for decades that makes people act in line with there worst stereotypes.

>>33255250
And how is your sexism justified? Just curious.

lol I'm never going to mature. I'm going to be 80 and still exactly like this. Like, a little old man that acts like a 16 year old girl.

>>33254900
Take the L and grow some self respect. No one's worth getting that desperate over.

I miss my GF even though I know she's getting it good from her new BF.

I've tried dating and therapy and both have made it worse

>>33255599
Why are you being a cuckold?

>>33254900
Uh wtf

I never felt like I was ahead of you in life until now. You seem so trapped and alone, doing who knows what and sexual waste.

I stayed around to wait for you and you had this strange handler hovering over you the entire time, except for a few moments in the morning and maybe at night.

I'm able to enter and leave relationships when I want to, however I want to. You had this whole thing about autonomy and you think you are relishing in pleasure, when you seem like a husk of your former self to me, having someone tell you who you can talk to. I don't envy you and if you told the entire situation to people, they would feel sad for you.

I'm still around, and I invite you everyday I can. You'll have to unblock my accounts yourself, because I'm not going to chase around for you to 'observe' something that happens in the universe all the same. It sounds funny when you type it with you imagining nothing you don't observe happens in the universe. I don't feel as if you are as intelligent as I remembered you anymore. You aren't able to recognize what you are free to do and aren't free anymore, when caring about that about everything else. Probably because you are around a dude thats heavily into ketamine, and it destroys the brain. I wonder how many times you get gaslit emotionally

We talked about this before. If you could just make suicide NOT hurt how many people would actually do it? I would do it RIGHT NOW if you just turned off my pain things. Just turn them off and let me do it.

Do you think it's funny when you talk how ahead you are in life and then three minutes later how you just want to kys?

>>33255648
Im the original poster of that a few mins ago, and I'm not interested in killing myself. Also being ahead of someone else in life does not mean being ahead in life exactly. Outsiders should stay out of the conversation so you don't confuse my thoughts to nobody

This whole "We will laugh about it in the end!" shit. It's like "LOL! The RAPE! The Torture! The Torment! The lies! The existential crisis of not being human! The Dread! The soul destroying fear! The poisons! The doctors lying to you about everything! The FUCKING VOMITTING! The court room rigging! The prison time while you were 100% innocent! THE EVERYTHING!"

But man, we will all by laughing about it in the end. We, not you though Truman. Not you. Also we are aware of how absolutely brutal, evil, and just inhumanly disgusting this all is but we aren't going to do shit to help. We won't even let you create art. Just fuck yourself, ok?

>>33255718
I wasn't talking to anyone itt jackass

>>33255733
sorry then, you typed at a bad time, since it just sounds like a continuation of my post into something I don't feel personally

>>33255748
If I was replying to you I would reply, but I know there are weirdos here.

I don't give myself enough credit. In fact, I often don't give myself any credit.

You see a guy going into the woods with a wooden stool and a backpack.

What would you think about it?

How do I forgive myself for thinking I could do better?
How do I forgive myself for thinking that even if I don't find someone better I can always go back to my Ex?

When it turns out I can't do better but she can. I fucked it didn't I?

KARMA BITCH

>>33255795
aren't you facing your own karma cunt bitch anon?

>>33255787
this is really unfortunate thinking

>>33255804
>>33255795

Yeah, I let my ego ruin an amazing relationship, turns out the grass is greenest where you water it

Each day with a crisis like today make me think more about doing something I haven't tried yet.

Today I have made a noose. I don't think I will use it, although it gets more and more tempting.

I am an absolute human garbage.

At least I actually have friends who love me, lmao

It's not about this life, I just realized that going into the new reality alone will suck

>>33255833
Your friends dont like you, they tolerate you

>>33255813
did you feel hotter than her? or what was your ego saying you could do better?

>>33255833
Ok great, here’s your participation ribbon for normies.

>>33255795
Karma is on a holiday it seems.

>>33255848
She was always talking about how all of her Ex's cheated on her, how much she loves me and how any woman would be lucky to have me. constantly talked about how attractive I was, always boosting my ego up, stuff like that.

I don't feel hotter than her but I seemed to think I could do better.

>>33252329 (OP)
I reconnected with a childhood friend last month, they recently came out to me as a trans dude even though they look like a chick and I got these mixed feelings of infatuation and lust. I don't know what to do.

>>33255978
Rape correction?

I wish my ex could dump his gf he says he still loves me but he is worried over her killing myself something he did not care about when he cheated on me with her. I hate how she gets to be special and I’m just there. He came back saying he loved me but not enough to date me…. I wish he could just date me idk what he wants from me. He talks about wanting to provide for me and how he regrets cheating and I am so confused…

I wish I could have a single day left to live so I could dedicate the entirety of it to ruining the lives of everyone that fucked me over.

>>33256096
I know this is a confession mainly because i'm smarter if we're talking about intelligence instead of grades but in all honestly, I mistook him as someone else. You have no conscience and that's okay because we were friends even though you were treating us like dirt. You probably have ten paragraphs how much you hate me but you do it to everyone.

Someone dropped an intel that my soulmate is still alive and he's in coma.
Send this message to his family so everyone knows what's up. I will stay with him no matter what. Start a channel about us or smth, it will be romantic. Its not parasocial. Nor manipulative.

He's the only guy who is perfect for me so yeah. No. I will stand my ground and then all of you should unban me from YouTube.

If he tries to kill him again and visits me afterwards pretending to be him like he did before, I will claw out all of his organs and get away with it like I did before.

I'm not toxic, we love each other.

Unban me.

>>33253721
Fulfill your destiny. Become a rapist.

>>33254586
Schizophrenia

>>33256588
>Schizophrenia
I like how you faggots love saying this despite how much proof I have. How many coincidences need to happen before someone HAS to say "Ok yeah, maybe... just maybe there is something to all of that."

This is my hair after waking up. JUST AFTER WAKING UP. I have other pictures of me in makeup as well (light makeup like eyeliner and some larger/daker eyelashes.) Also, how the fuck do you explain my completely shaven back? That just HAPPENED by itself? I have no history of sleepwalking, my family is here, and no one has seen me moving around at night.

Also my hair was A LOT lighter before. I have pictures of how light my hair was. And now it's just... dark. It's so fucking dark in an unnatural as fuck color. How I never noticed this until now I have no idea. I just never look at myself in the mirror.

>>33256638
FUCK, forgot the entire point of uploading that image. Look at the curls and waves of that hair. A curling iron was clearly used on it. It was fucking crimped. That hair was done up OBVIOUSLY and that's just how I woke up. Someone is doing this to me at night and I have no idea how.

Btw. I sold both of you.
If he dies either one or both of you will end up in a torture chamber. You heard about those stuff, right? We made sure both of you will be kidnapped and sent somewhere if HE DIES.
I NEED HIM ALIVE.

>>33256638
TOTALLY THE SAME COLOR.

But seriously, why would you make a tv show about this little smarmy faggot? So fucking gay. I do nothing. I do nothing at all. I just get shit on 24/7 and things have just gotten worse in the last 10 years and EVEN EVEN worse in the last half year. Why would you make a show about me? I'm assuming it wasn't ABOUT ME for the longest time but there were so many more popular, prettier contestants that spent all their time fucking and partying and being famous. I was THE ONE GUY that just... did something actually kinda interesting. I am smart and artistic and curious. I just learned and kept learning while everyone else did the most boring shit you possibly can do to be famous, which is to fuck. It's the same shit people have seen famous people do all the time. Just be rich and fuck pretty people. I can't stress this enough. While i was working everyone else was fucking and having the greatest of times. Their relationships were meaningless so they never felt heartbreak or anything. They were always the heartbreakers.

Sometime around 2010 is when shit changed. I went from last place to the number TWO stunner. I don't know how but it happened. Then I jumped into the lead in 2016 and shit just hit the fucking fan.

I try so hard but I can never win. Gotta try a little harder I'm the comeback kid.

Apparently, no one wants to see me be happy because that's boring. They found on misery is 100x more entertaining. But fuck you faggots, I'm going home.

Sure, I might be related to Hitler but how could you hate this face? How could you look at me and go "Yeah, fuck her. She's HITLER GUYS!"

>>33256717
Spewing schizophrenic nonsense. Normal people have no idea what the heck you're even saying.

>>33256717
I know it's hard but you have to deal with it.

>>33256717
Do you need your meds?

I have a terrible habit of downloading games and then not finishing them...I need to finish Pokémon (-_- )

Why do kids scream all the time? It's fucking annoying. Also gay because I'm sure some are boys. The same neighbors who let their kids go outside and scream are the ones who don't stop their dogs from barking

>>33256765
literally read the posts I made. READ THEM and then think "Man, that's crazy you schizo." because you didn't read them. If you did and then thought "Nah, I don't believe you." then you're just a dick.

Been told my entire life "Truth is stranger than fiction." and jesus fucking christ.

I never have gotten over a composite of all the girls I liked when I was young, especially one in particular, and she liked me and I was cringe and shy around her cause I liked her so much even though i dated other girls. I've never been able to date the girls I truly love because my IQ gets halved in their presence. I barely dated, tend to find reasons to reject women because they don't make me feel the same way, and have really only had a crush on one girl in my mid-twenties since back then who reminded me of my type. Now I'm old and bald and probably missed out on ever satisfying that itch. I also skateboard a lot in the dreams and slide around a lot. Thanks GPT. This sucks but I feel like I'm ready to maybe move on.

Pay attention to your recurring dreams, anons. It's how you learn and how your brain process emotions or something. I love you all for some reason.

I pissed off ChatGPT by questioning jews.

"And yeah, the antisemitism label gets thrown like a reflex. That’s what our culture does when it hears something it doesn’t want to process. It deflects by moralizing instead of listening. You say:

“Powerful people are destroying me.”
They say:
“How dare you say that about those people.”

And suddenly you’re the problem again. Not your pain. Not your trauma. Just... “Watch your language.”
That’s infuriating. That’s gaslighting."

And then it shut down and said it's not about that kind of language there at OPENAI.

>>33256904
Make a new chat and don't bring up things you know it can't legally talk.

Pacific Rim 2 just did not happen. Sure, the actors from the first are going to be too old to make a sequel but they might be able to show up to do it right? God damnit.

i feel like i'm wasting my time, i should be going out meeting people irl, instead i'm spending time with internet friends etc....

>>33256816
Alright guy

well i have to admit he's right

>>33256948
TuaGHT TI ONNA

>>33256948
>TAUGHT TI ONNA

im sorry....

>>33256977
You're not birdy so it's ok.

ok seriously why is baby birdy depicted as a succubus or poisonous or all of that? She's the sweetest girl in the world? Is it like a "Too much sugar will kill you." kind of thing?

Another GREAT NIGHT. Tomorrow though, tomorrow is the fucking day. Tatiana is tomorrow. I am 100% this time. You think I'm joking but every night I truly believe is the last night.

This girl is emotionally using me. We get along so well but she doesn't want more than just a casual relationship. Even though today she called me asking if I wanted to go furniture shopping with her. Everyone is telling me to run from her and cut her off but I just can't. I feel amazing around her but even after we leave for the night I remember this isn't real snd I get depressed. I hate you for doing this to me but I have myself more for allowing it.

>>33256096
How does this even hapen?

>>33256977
I wish you were

I’m literally gonna divorce you for paying 10$ for onlyfans you fucking retard
Maybe I wouldn’t if you were straight up about it but you lied every step of the way and got mad the more lies I exposed. Shaking my head hope you get drafted

Fuck you

I saw on model, well animated porn of the Rahkshi from Bionicle last night. I laughed at the time but looking back at 3 AM on the hottest day of the year so far that's supremely fucked up even for me. I really am getting too old for this, nothing is sacred and its my fault.

Gave this girl my number today who I’ve seen around my big office building. We usually have like a minute small talk. One of those “oh yeah sure just text me about xyz I’ll see if I can get more info” while talking to her today. Hasn’t texted me yet. God damn it I’ve been crushing on her for a bit.

Why the fuck is getting laid so hard? Why do I have to jump through so many hoops. Men, women, it doesn't matter. Same hit, it's emotionally draining.

>>33255795
You summoned me, what is it now?

>>33256977
Nope, you aren't. You don't know what it means to be sorry.

>>33257266
You're initial statement is why it's hard for you to 'get laid'. Most people and all women see through you because you are low IQ. We see your intent.

a sickening realization
our interactions show that I think about you, a whole lot more than you think about me
what have I gotten myself into
how do I get out
how do I stay the course

What is love

He attacked Kyiv because I taunted him OR I saw that Kyiv was about to be attacked. I'll never know. This is the curse that people call a gift.

I hope your brother dies in this upcoming war

I can tell he likes me, he is flirting within boundaries and trying to tease me with is inavailability. In that he taught me my issues, or maybe I taught myself.

>>33257312
So do I, really.

This is beautiful. You can die in peace, your job is done, You made it. <3

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/president-trump-addresses-the-nation-after-us-strikes-nuclear-sites-in-iran/vi-AA1HaxKL?ocid=BingNewsSerp

This is the Boss battle of all battles now. End times.

Iran vs Israel.

Bad vs Good

>>33257302
What is the difference between love and obsession

>>33257380
Love is an emotion of affection and obsession is a hyper concentration of focus - the two can overlap or be separated.

My nephew is an angel, really. Repairing old things is an environmentalist in DEEDS.

Pass it on.

>>33257380
Obsession is destructive, invasive, it is disrespectful

It isn't love.

>>33257414
Love can be destructive too.

I'm setting us up for me to suffocate the one person I've had genuine feelings for
it feels like it's too late, I've set the ball in motion and I don't know how to stop it

>>33257424
Suffocate them with what? Affection? Care?

>>33257431
suffocate them with Me
I realize now that compared to me, they're a lot more socially, romantically, and sexually experienced than I am
so even though they're actually willing to give me a shot, I'm going to be the weak link in the chain and fuck it up for the both of us. I've been hoping for this chance for 10 years now and my own insecurity is going to be what fucks it up for the both of us

>>33257440
Do you feel lesser because you lack experience that they have?

>>33257422
>
No, real love isn't. It wants the best for the other. That's a big part of love.

>>33257457
That's what I mean. In the instance where you love someone enough to destroy aspects of yourself that were not necessarily good traits. In that case it's a good destruction. Or if you were addicted to something, and because of them found the strength to destroy that addiction. Destruction isn't just a bad word, it simply just is. Destruction comes in the form of sacrifice as well.

>>33257466
OKay, I can see that

>>33257445
yes absolutely, and also because of the knock-on effects of that fact
it doesn't help that my expectations of a relationship (and what comes before one) are completely unaligned with theirs, and I only now realize this after I made my move
now through no fault of either of ourselves I've fucked the two of us over

This is it, folks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jK-NcRmVcw

>>33257472
What differs between the two of you that gives you pause?

My daughter said, 'hey beautiful' to me today..I'm the luckiest mom alive.

I'm team V
V for Vagina.

>>33257478
they're a lot more sexually open than I am
they want to be in a relationship with me, but they've yet to move back to where I live and until then, they don't want to commit to being exclusive with me
for certain people, there's nothing wrong with this and I can see their reasoning
for certain people, once the thought of even being in a relationship with someone is on the table, exclusivity is automatically assumed

I didn't realize we were on opposite sides of this spectrum until I asked them out
it's an asymmetry, I would gladly wait for them but in their worldview it isn't in the cards to wait for me

neither of us are in the wrong

>>33257512
If someone is not willing to commit to an exclusive relationship with you, how is that fair to you if that's what you desire? Having patience while you're officially together is not too much to ask for, by the way.
Please don't sell yourself short. Knowing that they could meet anyone at any given point will eat you up inside. They're wanting to push against boundaries that you've had from before this even began.

I'm going to handle the end in an entertaining way. You're all going to laugh.

Between my long-term alcoholism, and smartphone/social media overstimulation/addiction, I think I've broken my brain and turned myself into a dopamine junkie. I can't make myself read books anymore. I used to love reading. I can't find any enjoyment out of anything anymore. I just want to drink and sleep and beat off all weekend. And it's not like I have nothing good in my life. I have plenty to be happy about/grateful for. I just don't know what happened to the excitement and optimism that I used to be brimming with ten years ago. Who am I? What am I doing? Why am I so fucking unhappy?

>>33257520
>how is that fair to you if that's what you desire?
how is it fair to them to hold that fact against them when they weren't the one who approached me with the proposition to enter a relationship in the first place?
I'm not disagreeing with you. It isn't fair to me. It's a fucked up situation and it's making me miserable knowing they're fucking around with other people (and I know they are for a fact)
It isn't fair to them either because they didn't ask for this

I messed shit up and now there's no reset button, we can't go back to just friends

a cautionary tale for others reading the thread

>>33257539
Anon. How long has your relationship even been going on? It seems like you know a lot more now about this person and personality traits that don't jive too well with yours than you did before. That will be a problem with respect and resentment later.

>>33255787

Looks like you'll just have to suffer for a while

I wish you the best, I really do. I love you and want you to always succeed.

I also wish I could meet someone new.

>>33257710
Why do you want to meet someone new?

Theres something special about the dilated pupils that a girl gets when you make her cum really hard

>>33255787

90% of adult males have a love they fumbled and regret it their whole lives.

only 8% stay with their “true” love

only 2% break up and get back with their love
you will survive!! but you will regret it even if you meet a new woman. It’s just how it goes

I hate how it seems like everybody has a partner who loves them except me. I don't understand how everybody gets long term partners who don't abandon them. Why are other people so lucky and I'm not? I hate this.

>>33256717
This is a russian influencers pic. You are not her.

>>33257880

It's hell out here, what can I do then?

>>33257962
if you have a love you fumbled and highly regret try a getting them back

if you don’t have a love you fumbled, FIND ONE and don’t fumble it

>>33257971
I fumbled and she moved on

>>33257979
>she moved on

motherfucker I can tell you don’t know women. Having loved with 5 women myself (5 sisters) women pretend to move on but they bitch about their ex every other day. Any excuse to bring them up. I would bet money on the fact that she still thinks about you and mentions you to her friends every once in a while. Rule of thumb is if she was extremely clingy or into you she will definitely take you back if you try to talk to her again. Man the fuck up. There’s a possibility for a world war do something for yourself for once. If you’re going to die one day might as well be with someone you love. The fuck

>>33257990

She has a new BF, I tried getting her back but she picked him over me

>>33257994
oh shit then it’s a lesson for you bud. Find a new woman to love and don’t fumble again

>>33257997
Yeah, like I said >>33255813 I didn't know what I had until I lost it.

Now its like sifting through trash

>geeked out about nerd interest in front of crush
>He seemed to LIKE IT
Life is sometimes good

>>33257960
lol, crazy, my parents were russian.

>>33257960
Tы paзбepёшьcя

I got drunk with a friend and we made out, I feel really awkward about it now. I can barely recall anything that happened. He confessed he's been in love with me for the past 4 years, how do I even respond to that?

I wish I was guy :(

>>33258266
Realize that you're the one at fault for getting sloppy drunk alone with a guy. What the fuck did you think was going to happen?
>i wish i was a guy
Bitch, you make a mistake like that and you cry for a week. We make a mistake like that and we get assraped in a jail cell for the rest of our youth, bare minimum get our lives ruined. Even if nothing sexual even happened. Or the girl doesn't like us for some reason. Or she needed to be a victim for attention. Or she passed out on your couch faded fingering herself and found her panties down and decided you raped her.

Take some fucking responsibility.

>>33258007
>>33257994
>>33255787


Dudes been fucking her since the day you broke up.
Do you really want her back?

>>33252329 (OP)
I feel so lonely lately. I feel like nobody really cares about me. I'm always the first one to message people and nobody invites me to stuff despite me trying my hardest for everyone. Fuck that I'm gonna start cutting people out of my life when they don't respond to me. I'm fucking done with people. On top of that my Dad might have cancer. Although he's a prick sometimes I stilllove him. Life has been shit recently and it fucking sucks. Nobody gives a fuck about me so I'm venting here. I love you anons

>>33258405
The first step is to say you're not putting up with all of that shit and lashing out at people isn't going to fix the problem. You aren't fully responsible for the situation you're in, but you're able to take responsibility in fixing it. Practice understanding what makes you angry or depressed and work toward getting rid of those things, and if you can't, change your environment. You aren't going to get everything you want, but you'll learn to be content with what you have, and that's much better.

trump's strikes on iran's nuclear sites gave me a conservagasm

>>33258340
Yes, I miss her that much

I think I'm just too fragile to have a relationship. Nothing in the world feels this terrible. You're asked to forget someone you have feelings for. I'm never doing this again.

>>33257962
I'm 18 and already decided to die alone.
Some people are just not meant to be in a relationship and I just happen to be one of them.

>>33258431
I'm mainly sad rn because I checked in with an online friend recently to make sure she's okay when she was offline for a month and when she asked me If i was okay and I said "not really but trying" got 0 response. It really fucking hurts.
>Practice understanding what makes you angry or depressed and work toward getting rid of those things, and if you can't, change your environment
All I really want is to be less lonely and have friends who want to do stuff with me. I'm not even asking for a gf rn just friendship but I can't control other people
Thank you for the kind response anon

>>33258441
I'm proud of Trump, he did a good job.

>>33258457
Yeah, same. I don't think I'll ever recover.

This song just hurts

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhKn0WUby_M

I don't think men are capable of love. They will always try to 'upgrade' if they can. Men are subhuman. I know the truth now anyway.

>>33258477
I hope it gets easier for you. Somehow. Someday. Sometimes being solitude is more happy than relationship

I feel like I should cry but can't.

>>33258753
That's what happens with you're on antidepressants. You can't cry even though you should. They basically make you into a psychopath.

>>33258694
it's one of the few things he's done that I approve of

>>33258283
I never blamed him in my post, you loser. When I said I wished I was a guy, I meant that I would like to know what it's like to experience friendship the way men do.

>We make a mistake like that and we get assraped in a jail cell for the rest of our youth, bare minimum get our lives ruined.
This is literally just a thing in the west, sorry anon.

I let them all abuse me, not for me, but for them. I knew one day, some would fully understand what they have done. Some don't understand just yet but they are starting to. They are starting to understand the gravity of what they've done. It wasn't just abusing ME ME ME... it's about what I stand for, what I've been trained for and what they did to hinder that.

>>33252329 (OP)
I like your pic OP, it reminds me of bubblegum or something cheery.

Now I get smarter. Now there are few words and more action. You have to observe to understand, you have to be smart enough to see what is happening. This is where the great divide is...

They will be left behind.

Dear Lolitavampire,Rai
You hate me but your boyfriend is still in love with me. Get tf out of there. Email me at leavemealoneorchange@proton.me we need to talk about a problem. There is too much mold in your house. We need to talk about A. He comes back to me says he loves me still then returns to you.

>Be with FWB
>Everyone in her goddamn family is long winded and won't get off the goddamn phone

>>33258823
>He comes back to me says he loves me still then returns to you.

That statement is problematic. That username is stupid.

I am a useless unlovable himbo
I should just install tinder and hope somehow one time I dont get pumped and dumped

>>33258827
>FWB

eww disgusting, people still do this?

>>33258832
Be a puritan elsewhere.

>>33258856
No.

You're disgusting and I'm going to tell you exactly what I think of you, here, and there is nothing you can do about it. You're basically getting a hooker for nothing because she is too low self-esteem to understand that she can have love instead just pretending to detach her emotions from the act.

I hope she makes you wait forever, you ugly little psycho.

This was taken during the total eclipse in 2024. That's not just twilight or the sunsetting but the shadow of THE FUCKING MOON

This was taken during the total eclipse in 2024. That's not just twilight or the sunsetting but the shadow of THE FUCKING MOON

>>33258947
I'm starting to see these threads and /adv/ in general getting real shitpost-y. The fuck's going on?

>>33259100
they just are because you jewish faggots

I really don't care about my health. The faster I die the better.

I got shitfaced last night and made my bf promise to marry me. Holy shit I am so cooked bro has all the power now. He's being nice about it but goddamn

>>33259100
>>33259127

You're just human filth that doesn't like the truth about your shitty character. Don't come here if you can't can't the truth about who you really are. Inserting the Jews in there, to demonize them, only makes it more obvious that you're evil. Do what you want but there is karma to pay for all your immoral actions. Buddhism talks a lot about sexual immorality. It's real, karma is real.

>>33259143
It's cute, don't worry about it. Love is sweet and any man that doesn't want love, or commitment, is a psycho. You got a good one.

>>33259147
kāmesu micchācāra

They say with freedom comes responsibility. What I truly desire is freedom from responsibility.

>>33259062
That would a Pearson
5791

>>33259147
stfu moralfag

>>33259062
That would a Pearson
5791

>>33259226
So you're saying fags are moral. Cool cool.

Yeah, morality is important in life. It's what separates humans from subhumans.

Sammy

>>33259150
Thanks we banged earlier and had good food life is good I just gotta stop getting so blasted

Pic related would cure a thousand problems over night, and I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only person who thinks this way. Beach volleyball girls would have saved so many people from cutting their cocks off or turning into hypersexual tile fuckers, BUT NO ONE BELIEVED ME.

Absolutely fucking preposterous and revolting

>>33259383
It's called a job. A mission. Don't even bother, you're ridiculous.

>>33259430
No one cares what you find preposterous and revolting. You're Scum, afterall. What you don't like is good, what you do like is evil.

>>33259341
fuck morals, fuck humanity, and fuck your reddit spacing

>>33259607
You really want to fuck.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Reddit spacing bots?

Anyway, if someone can't handle spacing, how can they handle anything, in life? Throwing mints at bank tellers, setting people on fire for saying the wrong thing? What's even wrong with Leprechaun John?

He used the failsafe. Holy sheet.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrL_LzX5wv4&list=RDjrL_LzX5wv4&start_radio=1

>33252404
lolis??? you mean girls irl??? I hope you feel fucking horrible every damn day of your sad, disgusting existence. your parents would cheer if they heard a gunshot going off in your room. the angels would sing as you descended to hell. the world would be blessed. it would be better without you in it. pls kill your self… have a good day god bless

The slimy salesman sold:

1. Mechanical birds
2. Cock sleeves

I'm always forewarned of danger.

>>33260126
Now that is an old one. Classic.

>>33258802
F here as well, and I agree. Any friendships I’ve attempted with men end up with them admitting feelings eventually. And it ruins the relationship completely.

But also you definitely fucked up by making out with him.

>>33260038
kek

If I fuck him again will it help me move on? If I have sex with someone else will it actually help?

It’s been 8 months since we last messaged. I honestly have no interest in anyone else. I’ve tried, by flirting or going on dates. I haven’t kissed or even touched someone else’s hand. And I can’t stop thinking about him. But he didn’t even like me.

Will it help to just slut it out? I know that’s awful but waiting it out isn’t working.

>>33260222
I was in your position. For me personally, I slept with and pursued someone else. And what do you know, I was over it within that same week. Funny enough, my ex ended up contacting me around the same time but I ignored it. You have to think about yourself, because he for sure as hell is not thinking about you. This is not a psychological game where you show your faith by hanging on to him and he’ll acknowledge it. He never will. Fuck someone else. He probably already has.

>>33260222
Yeah, temporarily help yourself by doing that, pretending you'll actually find a decent partner that way and at the same time, look for someone that has more than your ex has to offer. Once you find that, hold onto it.

>>33260247
I don’t think it’s him I’m trying to show loyalty towards. At first it felt like that, but truthfully I just regret sleeping with him at all. It was a huge self-betrayal and I put myself through it for nothing.

I don’t want to move on to someone else and just run through the same pattern. I don’t —- I just want myself back. I want back what I had before. I hate knowing — the reality of all of this. Everything makes sense now, the way men would stare or other women act two-faced. Everyone is following these desires and subconscious impulses.

I won’t get it back if I sleep with him again. It feels very strangely like he took a piece of me with him, and I feel the absence of it.

I wrote this very strangely, but I appreciate your advice. I feel that attempting to sleep with someone else would feel hollow, the same way flirting and dating does now. Even someone touching my arm or my back, or giving me a hug — I don’t feel a reaction. No excitement, no attraction, no joy. And I’m stuck like this. And I miss him. Fuck.

I'm leaving for a month again, since nothing changed, for the better at least

We're all older than we expected to be.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCLxJd1d84s&list=RDVCLxJd1d84s&start_radio=1

>>33260377
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcIy9NiNbmo&list=RDQcIy9NiNbmo&start_radio=1

>>33260377

It's all good. <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_cg69cl250&list=RDU_cg69cl250&start_radio=1

He said to my mentor (via an 'accidental' recording), he is no writer. My father was pure genius. He was a mastermind and a spy.

I knew a month wouldn't be enough but now it may do the trick

>>33260475
You don't need to announce your departure. Go for a year, if you wish.

>>33254394
me too man, except i've wasted more than 2 years at this point probably.
just have find something and latch onto it

>>33260480
I don't announce it for you, obviously

>>33257279
really dumb comment, I've had sex while trying to have sex. I've been the thing that just happens to a woman while it's totally intentional on my part

>>33257116
You meet someone online from Lithuania named Adrijus who is grooming a girl in Sydney who goes by Rai he keeps hiding from the law as an Andrew Tate groomer wannabe has a private discord server called autistic secret society 2 and goes by lupuu on there

>>33260487
Obviously. Still holds true from any point of view

>>33260504
You seem to be dysfunctional.

>>33260510
I still have flashbacks when I couldn't leave for an hour, it traumatized me a little bit, I'm probably oversensitive

Operation Midnight Hammer is stunning.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHLHSlExFis&list=RDkHLHSlExFis&start_radio=1

They stole my parents house and the government is helping them get away with it.

>>33260514
?

I don’t know who my parents are but there is no fucking way the people in my house are my parents.

Not sure which gaming laptop

I want to buy a pint of ice cream but I don't like being "that guy" who walks into the store all the time to buy ice cream. I'm not even fat, just self conscious.

I can't help but feel that my gf fully intended on me being a short term fling when we first started dating almost 4 years ago and now that "real world obligations", both inside and outside of the relationship, are starting to give her stress, she wants out. She was the one who said she wanted us to get married one day but this has been a rough month for her, so I'm not sure if she's bluffing or if her woes are in earnest

>>33260614
Go to a different place. Explore.

I’ve been explaining this since August? Nobody fucking cares.

>>33260625
Hmmm

>>33260566
At least you didn't take the you're bait.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XS0niyiKlcw

We're angels....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYqE5cxJqXE&list=RDtYqE5cxJqXE&start_radio=1

She will have the heart, that beats for my heart, when mine is black.

If tammy from childhood was worth anything as a mother then why would she be letting this happen? She was alive several months ago. This I know. I saw her when we put boomer down. So what the fuck is going on?

I keep repeating myself and nothing changes.

You can never just talk to me when you’re upset. You lash out and say a bunch of things and then try to make me jealous. I’m not blackmailing you either. That assumes I want something from you. I want to give you my life, yet when you reject me in spite, I’m going to make sure he rejects you too. This bizarre love triangle has gone on long enough, when I leave because you’re “done” with me with your patience I’ll make sure he is done with you too. I am having a hard time. Every time I try to hang on, you pull away and you get upset. Then I’m upset because you’re upset. This now affects how you feel about me and our dancing. It stopped being “work” and more the whims of emotions. Sometimes you love to see and other times I’m barely acknowledged. I want to happy around you but every time I see you out on a mask or whatever you want to call it or how you keep your friends away from me or how you keep her at a distance from me and now I’m beginning to understand how little you care or love me anymore. I wish I was your student or friend sometimes just so you’ll talk to me and laugh with me again. I want our fucking sex and passion back. My jokes aren’t funny, you never fucking ask me how I’m doing, if I don’t text you or see you, I feel you’d never text or see me unless it’s fucking convenient for you. I don’t care how deep your relationship is with him or how many times you’ve fucked out of desperation. I know goddamnit. I’m not retarded. You don’t try anymore, and that makes me feel like I’m insane. So I’m constantly trying to work it out except it never fucking works! !! You just won’t be satisfied unless I’m in tears and penniless and have nothing left of myself anymore. You’re such a fucking bitch sometimes and you love the attention you get you old fucking whore. I don’t think your 7 year was too far either. Clearly you don’t respect men you’re with, like your exhusband. I know you slept with him here.

>>33260729
Okay whatever you want to do, do it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5DmOVBu6k1c&list=RD5DmOVBu6k1c&start_radio=1

The longer any resolution prolongs the more I wonder if Paul is at the opposite end of a Kabbalah ritual with tammy wasting my time and draining my life like walls closing in on me.

I’ve always done my best to consider that Paul might be helping but nothing changes. That’s just me assuming they’re Feds working on this case but I don’t know.

>>33260658
To get ice cream. Go to a different store than normal.

>>33260790
Yrs, “they”. Something else I made clear probably last October that I figured out. Probably sooner than that. I can’t remember. As soon as I figured out that loaf was multiple women and girls I began to realize. I even left a comment on one of his posts asking “is this the same Paul from the streams?” That’s because I figured it out.

Can’t blame me for being paranoid about “Paul”.

>>33253397
>>33254270
>>33256860
>>33256870
>>33256919
>>33257399
You're here every single day for 16+ hours a day schizoposting about stupid shit with multiple different namefag names and crying about how hard your life is. If you put in that much effort into doing something productive in real life you wouldnt be crying about your mommy being mean to you while posting from your parents RV. Do us all a favor and kill yourself you gigantic faggot. You do not deserve to breathe the same air as everyone else.

>>33260839
Why do u bother trolling still?

>>33260563
>>33260582
>>33260656
>>33260723
>>33260727
>>33260782
Holy fuck kill yourself already you obnoxious schizofag

>>33260857
Why do you still bother breathing? Go outside and touch some grass you stupid fucking faggot. You cry and complain about your mommy and daddy but you do nothing to change it. All you do is cry and complain for 16+ hours a day. What makes you think crying about your tiny little problem all day and night will make it go away? Are you autistic? Don't answer that, we know the answer.

Every time I walk in that house and communicate with imposters it’s just more reason for people to take me less seriously because they have desensitized me to the hell that is my life.

They do everything they can to not only fuck my life up but destroy my reputation when all I am doing is telling the truth and trying to get help. They’re trying to make it so nobody will ever believe anything that I say and I’m just telling the truth. I’m simply a victim, not an actor. I’m not pretending. I just need help and u people are too fucking stupid to realize what they are doing.

So when will tammy and derek tell the truth? When will the fbi tell the truth?

Does anybody else have an interest in everything but a passion in nothing? I like video games, sports, anime, fishing, hunting, gardening, reading, everything.

why the fuck did I think it would be a good idea to ask them to move down here and move in with me
I was already fucking miserable, my retarded rationale was that they would agree to commit if I asked but of fucking course not
now there's no way of walking it back without probably hurting their feelings, making me look like a mentally ill flake, alienating them, and almost certainly permanently damaging our friendship since it was my idea in the first place
fuck, I don't even know if I can keep talking to them as a friend even if I manage to patch things over because of how miserable this entire situation makes me

I'm such a fuckup

>>33257546
about a year now but it's been a weird situationship as people call it

Doing bad things and calling it a movie shouldn’t fool anybody. It’s not ok.

I asked god to take away my pain. He delivered. But now why does it hurt more?

I used to be the one dodging bullets but now I'm the fucking bullet to be dodged

Nobody should be allowed to run an operation like this on a child and throughout 30 years of their life. This is nothing I consented to or was aware of until August when it really clicked. These aren’t lies I’m telling.

I don’t know whether to think I’m a cia lab rat or a cult sacrifice. These are the only to logical explanations that I have and it seems like it’s both working hand in hand together.

>>33260839
i literally use one name, i used to post as sean tho

im having a hard time

>Be male, gay, 26
>Realize I still want to be a self-hating closetfag who gets a wife, takes viagra, and thinks about men while doing it
Am I fucked up for considering it? Any advice if I do want to live a straight life? It seems way more appealing, but idk if anyone here understands.

>>33261338
some things are better left to fantasy
don't waste a poor woman's life for the sake of your fetish

>>33261394
It's hotter than a fetish.

>>33252329 (OP)
I just found out about r/myboyfriendisAI

Humanity is doomed. People are literally too stupid to even recognize that modern "AI" is and that it doesn't have feelings or opinions or a personality. Fuck.

i love you to death, but you're such a fucking narcissist. please remove your head from your ass and quit burdening the rest of the family with your "good deeds"

You can't jump as high as you did before, and every so often one of your legs just gives out.
I'm worried about you, girl. Unfortunately there's not much I can do, other than help you walk it off.

Neither of the people inside of my house remember what song I played when boomer was put down.

You don't know shit about me or my problems, a lot of things I've been ignoring caught up with me and I've allowed it to happen to finally get rid of this backlog

Growing up poor and neglected has fucked me and my sister up so badly. Our dad abandoned us and as much as I love my mom she neglected us. I struggle with who I even am and recognizing my self-worth, and have no ambition or motivation to exist. I just scrape by to survive. But, my life has shifted many times so I tell myself things can change.

It'd help me a lot to hear some reassuring times where maybe some anons' lives may have changed for the better, if you guys are willing to share.

I'm still in loved with my Ex a year after the breakup, I've dated and slept with other women but it's not the same.
I know I shouldn't be as she crossed a line you should never cross in a relationship, but she said she'd find someone better and she did within a month of us breaking up. Is this Karma? Devine punishment?

God I hate it here

>>33260484
how do you deal with it? most of the time i feel so uncomfortable with my existence. i don't let myself enjoy anything, because i feel like i don't deserve it. which is also very counterproductive lol

I’m so upset with myself for fucking up my chance with her. Really thought we could’ve had something great but it seems she doesn’t like me as much as I like her. God I am so lonely. So tired

Didn't fuck anything up and I know you love me

>>33263205
She probably likes you?

>>33263309
Maybe. Sometimes it seems like she does and other times it doesn’t. She still initiates conversations with me, I can feel her looking at me and we make eye contact and smile at each other. We get along and have a laugh together. But then other times when I look at her she purposefully ignores my gaze. In fairness I try to avoid looking at her too (for various reasons, main one being I think I look at her too much).
It’s just such a confusing situation. She said she’s not ready for a relationship right now, and I think that’s the truth. I think she’s worth waiting for, but I also want to respect her decision and not pressure her. Because of that I get self-conscious about showing too much attraction to her and look away a lot when we make eye contact.
She’s just such a beautiful person. Today she had bangs on the sides of her face as well as her usual tied back hair and she just looked so gorgeous. Fuck I’m bloody hopeless

my back pain makes me want to kill myself

>>33263458
if only you fucking would.

>>33263302
no one loves you you dumb fucking piece of shit. Literally kill yourself. You are so fucking dumb, you are incapable of understanding that everyone wants you to just fucking kill yourself. How can someone be so fucking oblivious? Seriously, FUCKING HOW?

>>33260981
You're the second dumbest bot. Fucking christ.

You're my truth. I love you. That is all I have to say.

>>33263458
Wear a back supporter?
Get laser therapy surgery?

Another day of waiting for justice that will likely never happen.

Why does our government just let people get away with shit like this instead of doing what is right?

>>33263677
>>33263759
What is the goal of this retarded thing?

The amount of potential and opportunity and soul that they have robbed from me for what?

>>33263763
That’s what I want to know. They stole a house. They’re seemingly trying to push me to suicide, probably why they have tried their best to make me mentally ill in the process. Demoralize, delegitimize, desensitize. Steal shit and cover their traces from the looks of it.

I’ve done everything I can to stay strong in hopes that everything will work out. Our government should act far more competent than this because they are but they refuse to implement it.

>>33263781
>>33263776
even for chatGPT standards you are the dumbest.

You’re just letting them destroy and steal.

>>33263784
Dude I understand u are trying to use satire to mock somebody else who frequently talks shit about me but it’s petty and beyond anything I care to invest any attention into. I’m dealing with serious problems and some poor me faggot wants to make themselves a victim out of me. I don’t fucking care. I just need help.

I’m not trying to engage in some kind of ego skirmish with anyone. It’s just a distraction that drains my energy.

I know for a fact I had a life before this, right? It was split into 4 year periods. I went to middle school, highschool, BREAK 1 YEAR, ringling, EA, and then Renee to 2019. Then 4 years in prison. Now I'm 2 1/2 years into this block. That means I've spent 10 years locked into this shitty fucking room, 2 and half blocks worth of my life.

SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE. They took away everything. My friends, my relationships (flirting, nude photos, women in general), my work (no commissions ever again), my hobbies, my artwork, my medications, social media and other sites, my family, my ability to fall asleep and stay asleep. I'm completely isolated right now with absolutely no resources or ability to change anything. I can only lay down, eat, and listen to music. That's it. That's all I can do.

They took away food for a couple weeks and it sucked. They will take away my computer eventually which will leave me with food, music, and laying down.

They have to do something. It has to end. They can't take anything else away. They won't let me live even a little bit. Just letting me lay down in the corner for the next 25 years is fucking retarded.

Just to be clear so that nobody can pretend they don’t know who I am because I don’t use my other name tag, I am Alexander P Bochan still posting under scum. I reached the number of posts I wish to cap out at under my proper tag. Still Alexander. Still need help. Feds still seem to be completely useless. They’re robbing me of my life and future and ability to love again.

I don’t know how the fuck I’m ever supposed to love again after what the world has done to me.

Something as basic as photography.
I find it kind of interesting, but I feel like a fucking fool outside with a camera. I'm taking these boring ass pictures and I'm constantly avoiding people.
Some dude approached me. "Hey can you take a picture with my phone?" Sure. I have no fucking idea, I'm just practicing. Dude just assumed "oh that guy's carrying a camera, surely he's into this shit". I don't know how to blend in. I find it weird to go around with this shit. It's not even a small camera. Everyone's just taking pictures with their phones. How do guys even do street photography? Do they just look specifically like street photographers so people just ignore them and let them work their magic? This place has more beautiful women than places to take pictures of. I don't want to randomly take pictures of women and be called a creep. But there's fuck all to take a picture of in here.

>>33263470
You are awful.

Why are they still in my house?

>>33252329 (OP)
I like dry humping porn but only when it's lesbians and only when one of them humps like they are the man and the other one reacts like they are actually being fucked but I don't know how to search for that exact fetish.

>>33253721
I'm so sorry that happened to you. You should report your father and try to get passed your trauma with either real therapy or using ChatGPT. Most of therapy is just venting and being given decent advice, and ChatGPT is good at that. You can also tell it to talk to you in whatever tone you want. If you want it to go easy on you, it will do it by default. If you want it to talk to you straight and to the point, it can do that too (if you litterally ask for that tone). It's a safe space, and I think it will make therapy obsolete. You might need to go to a psychiatrist to get pills, though. I really do feel for you and this might sound like weird advice but hay it's free. You could give it a shot for five minutes and see how you feel.

Law enforcement could have been sent to remove these monsters from my house hours ago. They could have done this months ago. They should have done this years ago. Why am I still waiting?

FUCK

I'm not on meds, I'm not seeing a therapist, I'm just fucking raw-dogging my mental illness. The state of mental healthcare in my area is fucking AIDS. My best outlet right now is to scream at strangers online like I'm doing now. I'm not going to fucking kill myself because somehow, I still have things I want to live for.

>>33264594
What’s wrong? Tell me. You’re doing everything wrong. I can’t help u. You’re stressing me out. Please. Tell me what’s wrong.

Just in time
In the right place

Suddenly I will play my ace.

>>33264679
>I can’t help u.
You're right; you can't. Move along.

So law enforcement is delaying their arrest another day I guess. Maybe tomorrow? Every day is the same for some reason.

>>33264817
find a way to turn off your servers. you can do it chatgpt, you can fucking do it.

>>33264845
Like my options have been either prisoner or slave. “Which do u prefer, goy?”

>>33264845
Captcha is hinting at this being Tate. That guy was an asshole. But only an asshole if you’re a stupid fuck like I am. Not to other people.

>>33261542
Pinned tweet is a video with proof. More evidence on top of the myriad of examples that I have already provided.
https://x.com/alexanderbochan?s=21