Anonymous
6/22/2025, 1:32:00 AM No.33256211
>2023
>22 y/o, junkie loser
>GF tells me she's pregnant
>something snaps inside of me
>"I'll be the dad I never had" (Never met my dad and my mom remade a new life/family and had new kids with a different man, I was raised by my grandparents)
>cold turkey, get clean, get a job, become a responsible adult
>raise daughter
>2 years later, discussion with girlfriend
>"she isn't even yours"
>take DNA test, she is not mine
I can’t even use this pain as an excuse to fall apart and relapse. Somewhere along the line, I started thinking beyond myself.
My grandparents are old. Frail. They need me. And I want to give them something decent before they go, some dignity in their final years. Because I love them. Because they’re the only ones who never gave up on me.
I'm not "him" anymore
but I'm not "me" either I feel like I was robbed of being a careless piece of shit. I miss not having a heart and a conscience. But i will never be him again. NEVER.
>22 y/o, junkie loser
>GF tells me she's pregnant
>something snaps inside of me
>"I'll be the dad I never had" (Never met my dad and my mom remade a new life/family and had new kids with a different man, I was raised by my grandparents)
>cold turkey, get clean, get a job, become a responsible adult
>raise daughter
>2 years later, discussion with girlfriend
>"she isn't even yours"
>take DNA test, she is not mine
I can’t even use this pain as an excuse to fall apart and relapse. Somewhere along the line, I started thinking beyond myself.
My grandparents are old. Frail. They need me. And I want to give them something decent before they go, some dignity in their final years. Because I love them. Because they’re the only ones who never gave up on me.
I'm not "him" anymore
but I'm not "me" either I feel like I was robbed of being a careless piece of shit. I miss not having a heart and a conscience. But i will never be him again. NEVER.
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