I've tried to kill myself four times already, and even when everything is going well now, I still feel the urge to try again. But it's not that I want to die, what I want is to feel like I'm dying, to go through the physical process of it. If someone could promise me that tomorrow I'd wake up exactly as I am now, I'd jump off a building right now. Does this have a name? That's all I want to know.
Idk, I highly doubt English has a name for it, but I think maybe there is a certain 'puer aeternus' complex at play here. I think if you read through (even a little) of Marie Lpuie von Franz's book of the same title it can bring some truth to your condition.
>>33257500 (OP)i used to get so fucked up drinking i felt like i was dying, cant promise that would make anything better before it made everything worse but its probably better than jumping off buildings
>>33257500 (OP)how do you fuck up four times lol
>>33257500 (OP)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3acec2gBPU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDeFev3pkGo&
>>33257500 (OP)>I've tried to kill myself four times alreadyClearly you're not very good at it. Perhaps it is time to give it up and find a new hobby.
>>33257500 (OP)Do it in a funny way but in a way that doesn't bother people
Like make it an ARG to find your corpse or something, you're gonna live forever in a shitty zoomer youtube video
>>33257500 (OP)>I've tried to kill myself four times alreadyThen you're one big, incompetent fuckup, aren't you?
