I go into these periods where I become extremely hateful and then calm down. Its like I can either care about nothing or plan a full on hate campaign against somebody and then go to prison and ruin Christmas when the reason why I did it happened months before.

I’ll go back to just not engaging and being docile and then next thing I know I’m calling someone who used to hit me to tell him to kill himself and other obscenities.

I’m a neet because every time I get a job or go to college I usually just end up not going because of how tiring socializing is.

I don’t even actually possess crazy views or desires, I just utilize them to shock people who have wronged me.

I guess TLDR: I get tipped and my tank is on empty. But I never did this stuff to anyone who wasn’t trying to provoke me previously.

>>33257692 (OP)
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>>33257692 (OP)
Develop neurological flexibility. We all have multiple minds and it is useful to become consciously aware of them.