Hey this is my first and last post on here. Got my heartbroken. Yesterday she told me that she loves me and today she says I'm a stalker. I'm not even sad, I'm just numb, like im done with everything. I'm not mad at her at all, I understand. It was all my fault. I wish things went differently. Please don't make the mistakes i did if you find someone that loves you, try to make them happy as much as you can. I tried too, but i always said or did the wrong things. I got some beer for courage and theres this train near my house, but remote enough so i wont be disturbed. I'll wait until my brother leaves then ill start drinking. Maybe this is my last cry for help or something idk.

>>33257978 (OP)
probably a bdp reaction from her, don't take it personally.

Idk for me this is pretty final, she blocked me on everything. I'm not taking it personally at all and i hold no grudge against her. But i just can't do it anymore yk.

>>33258012
what can you not take anymore? The pain of rejection? It's part of life, but the more you focus on it, the worse it gets.

>>33257978 (OP)
Do it faggot, your life is worthless anyways

>>33257978 (OP)
Think about what it's going to be like for the train driver.

Idk it's not about the rejection. Im just fucked up, has nothing to do with her, but i gave everything another chance with her and now thats gone too. Btw "Do it faggot, your life is worthless anyways" made me laugh so hard, thanks for that

Meant crane not train, sorry im stupid.

>>33257978 (OP)
God hates faggots

>>33257978 (OP)
spanzura-te <3

>>33257978 (OP)
Youre fucked beyond repair, no one can help you anymore, kill yourself lil budd

>>33257978 (OP)
Train companies keep psychiatrists on contract to treat engineers traumatized by being made the unwilling collaborators in some selfish idiot's suicide.

By all means, kill yourself if you want to. But don't ruin some innocent driver's life in the process.

These replies are making me laugh so hard, by all means love you guys. im pretty drunk already gonna go in like 2 hours.

>>33258047
bye faggot, no one will miss you

>>33257978 (OP)
You're the victim of a BPD women, similar thing happend to me only she genuinely loved me but couldn't handle being loved back by someone who'd never abused her.
It's rough man, I want to kms every day, the only thing that stops me is the hurt it would cause my brother.

she just called me for being rude, but she said she meant everything and that im a psycho. Fuck i love her so much. Moms gonna be sad for a while ig, but idk i have to do it.

>>33258060
I think she genuinely loves or loved me too. Idk if she has bpd, she might have some tendecies. Yesterday she called me (we have been broken up for more than a week) a few times. Right before she went to sleep she called me again telling me she loves me, that she misses to call me pet names and that she will miss me. I think her heart still wants me, but her brain doesn't. I thought about going to her again, one way ticket, but idk i dont want to overstep the boundaries (long distance rn).

bye guys, ill go now. it's like a 5 min walk. love you guys. Hope everythings goes well for everyone. Im sorry.

>>33258111
sorry for what? You're the who's about to throw his entire life into the dumpster over some mentally ill woman
go sleep it off

Anon, there's no such thing as the right thing to say or do. You just have to be yourself. Why would you want to be with someone who doesn’t like who you truly are and plays hot and cold with you?

You are not the problem, she is. There are plenty of people out there for you to meet, and some of them will love you for who you are and will be ready to give you the love you deserve.

Don’t destroy your life over a passing feeling.

I’m still in front of the crane, kinda wanna drink a bit more. Should I call her?

>>33257978 (OP)
She's just crazy

>>33257978 (OP)
Same thing happened to me too. So I went the opposite route and made her life a living hell. Just because I felt like it. 7 years later, she's on meds and I have a loving wife and a kid. I won.

>>33258047
I'm waiting

>>33258074
>Yesterday she called me
If you're still about dude, you need to cut communication with her, I know that's difficult as fuck but it's the only way to move on, whether intentional or not she will keep hurting you and as long as you keep talking to her the wound will keep being pryed open; trust me on this brother.

>>33257978 (OP)
imagine killing yourself over this lol

>>33257978 (OP)
>Hey this is my first and last post on here.
Glad to hear that you found a better way to spend your time! I won't read any further.

>>33259928
Thats a perfectly timed reply
This is the first time you were funny, dissmisive anon