They have destroyed any and all chance for me to live a life that I'm satisfied with, while they get to live their dreams and not have to think even once about what they've done to me. They keep moving further up in life every time I look their names up, and worse of all, they're closer together than ever.
I get that this issue will probably disappear on its own when I start pulling myself by the bootstraps and make some new friends to obsess over instead, but that is going to be difficult if I can't stop thinking about them, instead of myself and what's best for me.

>>33261328 (OP)
Occupy your mind with how to get your shit together

>>33261328 (OP)
Who destroyed your life and how?

>>33261328 (OP)
In a way, they've "ruined" your life by virtue of you still looking them up, looking at them moving on with their life, etc.

I don't know what the circumstances are, but as of you making this post; these people aren't forcing you to look them up, or to make posts on /adv/ about them, etc. Realistically, there's a certain point where you have to take responsibility for where you put your energy. The day you stop wilfully putting energy into these people, is the day you can say that your life is no longer ruined.

>>33261404
>The day you stop wilfully putting energy into these people, is the day you can say that your life is no longer ruined
If only it were that way. Every waking second is a stark reminder that things would’ve been better if I found another group of people.
These people were friends of roughly 5 years who then decided to collectively ghost me during the most vulnerable moment of my life, for reasons I will never get to know. This happened years ago, but I still haven’t recovered. I’ve developed severe abandonment issues from this incident, which is making the road to recover my social life near impossible. I try to invest as much energy as I can into myself, only to inevitably lie down in silence thinking about how different things could be, starting the cycle all over again.

>>33261328 (OP)
friend, i would straight up confront them. maybe in life but that feeling of know telling them how you feel will hurt with time. people try to hide their guilt but if you express them how feel they will never be truly at peace, same as you

>>33261480
>These people were friends of roughly 5 years who then decided to collectively ghost me during the most vulnerable moment of my life, for reasons I will never get to know. This happened years ago, but I still haven’t recovered. I’ve developed severe abandonment issues from this incident, which is making the road to recover my social life near impossible. I try to invest as much energy as I can into myself, only to inevitably lie down in silence thinking about how different things could be, starting the cycle all over again.
well it's kinda good that there was a specific event which makes you feel this way, and that you're aware of it
try to take it easier on yourself anon
>>33261511
this might be good advice depending on the details
it's hard to know whether closure would help or just make you hate them more

if you can find a decent therapist, do that
not one who helps you get your shit together or puts you on pills, but one who digs into this incident & helps resolve it