My neighbours gather around to make fun of me at late hours of the night and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
How can I develop thicker skin? I feel deep sense of dread when I overhear these people talking about me, I even put my ear against the wall to spy on their conversations, it's always sounds like they're having a party at my expense.

I moved out of my mother's place because of a situation just like this and I know that I'm the problem for acting like a retard, my voice is too monotone and I always make stupid mistakes. To top it off on my second night in my new apartment I decided to take shrooms to celebrate but a nice chat with myself turned into a bad trip and everyone in the small complex heard me tweaking.
What has me worried is that some of them think I'm a pedophile and I'm afraid I'll get beat up.

She’s dead lol

>>33262510
My mom? she's fine actually

>>33262501 (OP)
lay off the meth pipe for a while

>>33262501 (OP)
take your meds, people don't wake up at night to make fun of the neighborhood loser, that's more in your ballpark of loser mentally ill behavior, not the rest of the normal people.

This: >>33262611

Also, never touch psychedelics again. Also, as little weed and booze as possible. Drugs are not for you and you sound like you're one bad trip away from full blown paranoid schizophrenia.

How could they all hear you tweaking? Usually an apartment conceals speech unless you're shouting. Were you really THAT loud?

>>33262501 (OP)
bro don't be acting like some woman online with only 100 followers who only ever talks about how she has haters and haters are hating her

people in your apt complex or whatever probably don't even know your name and couldn't even remember what you looked like beyond "some guy". They're not holding secret meeting-parties against you

>>33262501 (OP)
You worry too much. If you really think it is a problem, fire a bunch of empty loads in the air and everyone will stfu when you are around. I think you worry too much. Maybe you’re interesting, it’s okay.

>>33265124
the walls are as thick as an anorexic's forearm, I wasn't really that loud but they can hear me whispering if it's late enough
>>33265146
>>33265304
I'm just worried that'll get kicked out of here
>>33264978
God I know, I only touch weed because I like to fap while high but everytime I do so it triggers some episode

are you me? im not schizo but autistic/adhd so i clearly exhibit some abnormal behaviour normies pick up on. my hearing is shot too, so if conversations vaguely sound like its referring to someone i assume its about me then start acting anxious and more weird. i literally just mentally block it out. listening to podcasts helps immensely to drown out noise and any negative reinforcing thoughts.

To be fair if there was a schizo living near me I probably would talk shit.

>>33262501 (OP)
This is why I hate living in an apartment, it's pure hell, humans were not meant to lived like caged animals, we need to be in our own small houses with nobody above, below or right next to us.

>>33266102
Allow me to (You). Idk what else to do.

>>33262501 (OP)
congrats OP you have schizophrenia

>>33268398
This is how it feels

>>33269369
me in the middle but with a >:3 face

>>33262501 (OP)
This nigga's talking to pillows
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mHwTpog015U

>>33262501 (OP)
you don't ever need to open the door for anyone but the police and even then they need a warrant. get noise cancelling headphones. if they don't like you they should say it to your face instead of through the walls.

you're not the first one something like this happened. one of my neighbors likes to shout about random stuff at 4am. nothing ever happened to him. you'll be fine. people are more conflict averse than you think. your landlord will be on your side by default because he wants your rent and doesn't want to look for new neighbors.

if they get physical you can involve the police and get them kicked out.

>>33270644
and even if everyone thinks you're a bad guy that's usually when things stop. they got you sorted and categorized as trash and then they move on with their mundane lives. neighbors aren't friends anyway.

>>33270644
>doesn't want to look for new neighbors
*renters

>>33262501 (OP)
You need professional help, not some imageboard advice. Though I'd advise you to stay away from drugs and alcohol in your position. Good luck anon, I hope things will get better for you.

>>33270644
>one of my neighbors likes to shout about random stuff at 4am
lmfao, yeah I'm going to stop tripping or at least stop getting up to listen to random convos
>>33270732
>You need professional help
I tried it for a while but people don't really like it when I bitch about my feelings like that, it's not like my life is that terrible