I recently remembered something that I did when I was a child, a teenager, it's been many years and I guess I forgot about it, but one night in bed, something clicked, and it all came back to me, and since then I've been dealing with pretty severe real event OCD, I don't know how to parse this, I did a bad thing, but I was a child, in a bad environment, but, I was a teenager, so maybe I was old enough to know better, I can't stop thinking about it, I'm a completely different person now, I was a completely different person then, how do I just move on from that? Am I just fucked forever now?