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I went through the archives before making this thread.
Every so often I get locked up in doing this
>negative feelings come
>I do something negative that ends up annoying others or go out of my way to be annoying (thankfully this is only online)
>people I don’t know hate me, I get b&, then I never come back to it
>usually I just log off, cry, think negatively, etc after the b& or when my mood is sour enough.
>I’ve done this for years as a way to cope and have racked up significant b&, even when I’m not in a bad mood I can still end up b& out of breaking rules because I’m bored or wanting to try something more edgy, or just grief (rendering NSFW in a non-nsfw game and breaking its TOS as a example)

The archives I’ve gone through end up repeating these pieces of advice
>I need a therapist
>I need to find a better way to cope
>I need to have interest in other people and their feelings
Outside of this advice I’ve only been doing these things.
I’ve been working out for exactly 4 months and twelve days. But this hasn’t made any huge difference to my life, I just have a “I need to get this done” attitude with it, nothing like “I want to gain” or “I’m proud of myself”.
Other then working out I have zero hobbies to distract or occupy myself with that involve making anything of value to other people which makes me upset. I do just fine at writefagging but most of it is directed towards ERP for a quick pleasure boost instead of actual stories or anything meaningful.
My usual routine looks like this now that I’ve graduated high-school
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>>33264979 (OP)
>oversleep
>wake up and grab my phone almost immediately
>browse 4ch, check messages for 10-30 minutes
>use the bathroom, eat, or go to my computer
>browse 4ch more or play vidya, though vidya has not been very enjoyable for a while and is just a distraction
>do this for most of the day, maybe use the bathroom or eat
>sometimes I replace vidya with watching TV, I’ve recently stuck to watching MLP G4 and something in me clicked after finally watching it again at my friends place, so I’ve been enjoying each episode I’ve watched (my dad’s fine with this). The last TV series I finished was 21 Jump Street.
>if the day’s a workout day, then around 9:00PM or (I’ve been doing it later lately) 10:00PM I bother grabbing my equipment (boombox, water bottle) and heading to the nearby in-building gym
>start routine with 5min run, usually have the boombox set very loud while playing its cassette
>do the exercises in order, 3x8, nothing too difficult just get it done.
>usually spend 30-50minutes each workout, always break a sweat, feel fine sometimes in a better mood.
>go to bed
>browse phone for 10-30min
>sleep
I should be doing more productive things like job searching consistently or learning something or reading books but I can’t bring myself to do it, I know I’m the only one who has to bring myself to do it though.
Most of the time doing the work for those things is frustrating or monotonous work and makes me feel worse about myself when I see the requirements I can’t meet while job searching. I know I need to make it a habit though, only recently did I have a successful job interview but my excitement ended up lapsing and I don’t feel as excited for it anymore (especially considering after I gave my contact info and never got contacted back).

I guess I’ve already answered myself while writing this down, I should probably think about or find good books to occupy myself with so I can feel productive and better about myself.

This kinda gave me AIDS.