Just turned 30 and feel as though the spark is gone.
How do I feel alive again and enjoy things like I used to?
Is this normal?
i'm 27. i want to go back to enjoying things like i did wen i was a teenager, i just need money. i don't know what you mean when you say "feel alive again", but i want to go back to living in my own world. i still have a active child-like imagination, i just need enough money to isolate again. i was at my happiest when i didn't have to interact with people. being alone is a truly cherished thing, and i have wet dreams about being the last man on earth.
>>33266185Just feel very bored. Everything is a chore.
Guess it's just the fact that I'm gangstalked and never alone so piece of shit boring normies are always peeking in on me giving their rancid takes
>>33266117 (OP)Smoke weed. Problem solved.
>>33266117 (OP)No, it's not normal. The secret is to have a long-term plan, not be a drifting plankton person, whose only tropism is what feels good in the moment. In other words, get a fucking life!
>>33266117 (OP)Aging feels way less depressing if you just start saying you are a year older than you are months before your birthday
>>33266256I have one but I don't want to share it with gangstalkers who treat my life like the Truman show and can see me through my vision.
Building an off-grid house in the mountains while listening to my DJ sets was "badass" until some creepy gender ambiguous freak shouted it at me when I am "alone"
>>33266117 (OP)Sorry to say but you will never feel the same "spark" you felt as a youth. By the time you are 30 life isn't a novel as it was because you've experienced enough to get the gist of how the things work, even stuff you haven't personally done. Typically people have children around your age and begin living vicariously through them as they experience the world as fresh consciousness. I assume because your posting here that your prospects of having children are low, so I would recommend trying to interact with children more, maybe a nephew/neice or start volunteering around camps and schools. This also would require you to be someone others can trust.
>>33266278I fucking hated being a kid dealing with all the stasi kids performing psychological experiments on kids who weren't involved in domestic surveillance
https://americanstasi.com/
I turn 30 (very) soon as well and I have to agree getting older is just watching people you love die, get sick, seeing friends move on or crash out, having women break your heart, watching the world you grew up in and were promised taken away and spit on, fail to live up to your own standards, etc.
>>33266291It is possible to have healthy relationships with children mate, that's what I'm recommending.
>>33266309I'm sorry your childhood sucked. Hopefully you can help children who are like you were to have a good one.
>>33266326Paedophile
>>33266328Read the article. Childhood is all about being just as much of a piece of shit as your gangstalking parents.
https://youtu.be/kHuoaNJp-uc?si=_-ePUbRUJ_suBFKs
>>33266117 (OP)Getting older doesn't make me less happy.
The trick is to want and enjoy the things I already have and am already doing.
>>33266326You're talking to a schizo that thinks everything is pedos, ignore him. He used to be a mod too, lol
>>33266256This, you can neet and plankton up tp 30-ish but that is the wall. Unless you are legit hikikomori you will go nuts if you don't start doing something, anything.
I started helping out elderly through my local church and became a close care nurse.
Its simple but needful work even an adhd retard like me can do :3
>>33266420>elderlyGang stalkers
Maybe it's the fact that they totaled my car and now I have to move all my stuff thousands of miles to live with my mom while I have surgery on my shoulder and wait for my major payout so I can buy land so I can't smoke weed and be alone and feel like I can't make progress on my game, website, comic, or anime cause I can't be alone.
>>33266379Well, based on his logic, everyone in this thread he is sexually attracted to.
>>33266117 (OP)first time?
this hits everyone sooner or later, some in their teens some in their 50's.
you can tell when a person's been through it by their attitude and ego
take care of yourself and take it easy. the rest will come in time.
>>33266117 (OP)it comes back
I used to get very depressed around my birthdays at some point
nowadays I party with the friends
I'm 41
>>33266117 (OP)I'd say 30 is a good run considering I lost my spark a decade before you did
I cant relate to people in this thread, I spent my whole 20s getting raped by mental illness. It feels like I finally get to enjoy life just like I did back when I was in school, maybe I will hate living again in my 40s, but for now I'm gonna enjoy my 30s to the fullest.
>>33271088based as fuck recovery arch.
