What is your preferred coping mechanism against loneliness? By loneliness i dont mean staying at home for a while because just because youre sick in bed. I dont have any family or friends that i love or that really love me and i also have never been in a relationship cause of mental illness. (im only 21 so theres still hope i guess?). Should i try to play as many immersive games as possible until i dont even care about the real world? Or should i just say fuck it and start taking benzos and opiates again? Just felt way too good the first time i did it, though i almost became a crippling addict

>>33266740 (OP)
for me, smoking weed and jorking it easily wins
it stops working eventually but it still assists adaptation

>>33266743
man i wish i could smoke weed again, but for some reason i start to get extreme depersonalization when i smoke weed and almost get to the point of having a full blown psychosis.

Jorking and Porn are things i avoid because they make me feel much more empty than before.

>>33266756
>depersonalization, lasting months maybe yrs
yum yum
>psychosis
i used to mistake my heartbeat for incoming footsteps and even too afraid to jork it at 2am
i cant even get that high anymore though. i feel like if i took benzos id get addicted fast but weed is easy to get off and doesnt do as much brain damage (as much)

>>33266810
yeah thats true but thats the thing i dont like drugs that give me such thoughts

For me the ideal drug would be one that makes my mind feel like im inside a giant piece of incredibly warm cotton candy for an incredibly long time

>>33266740 (OP)
People

>>33266740 (OP)
Biking outside

>>33267135
dont have that

>>33267731
>Biking outside
This, and having a long-term plan. If you live in one of those awful car-centric places with no sidewalk and where you are honked at for not being in a car then move.

>>33267887
NTA. Then go where some people are. The results will be unpredictable, of course, but those people will know other people, opening you up to infinite possibilities. Staying in your head, by contrast, results in entropy.

>>33266740 (OP)
Usually a huge amount of cannabis and also riding my bike.

>>33268508
I unfortunately do. I play it safe though, and only bike on trails/MUP's. I don't trust drivers even when I'm driving, what then when I'm on a bicycle lol