>going through a lot since the past 6 months
>highly depressed at 17
>know that it's time to face the real world, start earning and want to provide for my family so my father can retire
>but can't even get self out of the bed
>start cutting myself and punching the walls till my knuckles swelling
>push away all my friends because ik they cannot do anything for my help
>talk to therapist but unable to talk anything real with them
>multiple suicide attempts but failed each time and no one even knows

NO ONE TO TALK TO, NO ONE WHO MIGHT CARE, CANT EVEN DIE, THIS IS THE MOST HELPLESS I COULD GET, HOW DO I LIVE ANYMORE(OR DIE)

Just lock the fuck in bro. You know you have responsibilities to do. A family to cherish, while it must feel miserable to keep yourself alive at least think of others to keep yourself afloat. At the end of the day only you can get you out of that horrible spiral.

Find yourself a sense of purpose and cling to it, even if it feels like it's desperate to go in with it. Eventually, with enough hard work, just think it'll get better in the future.

>>33267472 (OP)
>>talk to therapist but unable to talk anything real with them
>>multiple suicide attempts but failed each time and no one even knows
>NO ONE TO TALK TO, NO ONE WHO MIGHT CARE, CANT EVEN DIE, THIS IS THE MOST HELPLESS I COULD GET, HOW DO I LIVE ANYMORE(OR DIE)
This does not logically follow. You have your therapist to talk to.

>>33267472 (OP)
I'm curious, how exactly are you failing suicide attempts?

>>33267952
Not OP: Therapists are mandated reporters and can send you to grippy sock jail. It's so god damned backwards.

>>33267472 (OP)
Beware of the women coming here and giving you their usual bullshit advice, these people don't care about you anon, they just come here to feel better about themselves and feel important as if their worthless advice ever mattered. These vile foids don't have a big social circle in real life to socialize and to spew out their worthless "advice" so they come here instead.

>>33267952
>>33268006
These are fine example of women giving advice, always telling you to pay (usually another woman) for advice. Never ever give women money for whatever reason, not sex, not "counseling" or any other horseshit and most importantly never take their worthless advice. Always do the opposite of what these vile foids say.