18 and depressed, i keep finding my way back here/edtwt/tcc, interested in guns/military shit but people i know irl dont know any of this cuz i dont want to come off as weird
too pussy to kill myself but life isnt getting any better, might join the army to find some purpose or something. might do nuclear engineering at uni.. my life has been pretty good recently but i still feel like splitting my wrists, should i just get it over and done with? would antidepressants help???

>>33269516 (OP)
Don't join the army "for purpose", everyone who does this regrets it. There is no purpose there, isn't just an unusually shitty job. Why don't you just take some time and figure out what you want to do, there is plenty of time.

You have suicidal ideation, so you probably could benefit from antidepressants. And if there is no substantial improvement from the first type, tell your doc and try a different dosage or drug. Also, read the side effects yourself, docs probably won't tell you

>>33269516 (OP)
>18
>is life over

nah it's just your hormones + a worldwide psychological operation campaign to crush your soul conducted by the elite.

I'm 26 and just a few month ago I have gathered the strenght to quit consuming social media, quit weed, take long walks and meditate. I only go on 4chan a few minutes a week and only the boards that are relatively "useful" like /adv/, /fit/, /ck/ etc.

if I started living this way at your age I think my life would be far better than it is now, even tho I consider it pretty decent.

you have hope if you decide to go a little bit against the grain and not follow all the retarded shit consumerist society pushes down your throat on the daily, you have plenty of smiles waiting for you fren.

do not join the zogbot army, train in your home, exercise, pick up a combat sport, if you want and it's legal in your country learn to shoot guns even, I'm not advocating for castrating your masculine instincts, just don't use them to die for a system that uses you and doesn't reward you.

good luck!