>Go on Chaturbate
>Watch girl for a while
>Want to see her asshole out of curiosity
>Ask her to show
>She shows
>I don't tip
>Room becomes awkward
>She feels stupid, contemplates her decision, idk why I wanted to see her anus but I was just curious
>She becomes confused, dances, feels awkward, dead silence, no tips
>She closes stream
>I feel horrible and think about her
>Enter her stream next day when she is back
>I know what is going through her head
>Want to "fix my mistake" and make her not feel bad
>Resist the urge to make it awkward again and make her give up her career
>Finally write "God you're hot"
>I see that she recognizes my name and she doesn't say anything
>Dead silence again
>I ruined it again
>Idk if leaving it will fix it, if she can see that I left, if she'll wonder if I'll be back again and just close stream again
>Spend rest of night looking at her, probably trying to relieve myself from the awkward tension I have created
>Realize moments later I am mentally ill and am only making someone else uncomfortable with a retarded obsession I'm developing over "fixing something awkward I did once"

And with a cam whore at that
Is this OCD?

you are addicted to porn. just dont touch your penis ever

>>33269589 (OP)
lol you're imagining things, you're not as important as you think in the life of others.

Yeah no a nofap faggot, but a cleanse now and again where you limit yourself is good if you're fapping too much. This anon is right >>33269617

>>33269690
not*

>>33269658
But then why did I ruin her day (twice)?

>>33269736
you did not, she probably didn't even realize you were there

>>33269797
She was dancing and chatting with her stream, I was mesmerized by her for 10 minutes then I wondered how awesome it would be if I asked this random stranger to show their asshole and they would, so I asked in a non awkward way
I wrote: "asshole? (happy emoji)"
It hit the atmosphere, etc, so she took her time and showed me her asshole
I didn't know how to react and it became awkward, chat got quiet, etc
Then she just felt stupid and like the vibe was killed, the others stopped talking, I knew I needed to say something so I wrote "amazing" 55 seconds too late
The vibe died for a bit and I watched her start looking sad, then she said she had to go do something and cancelled the stream

And then that other thing happened the next day. I can feel vibes very well so it makes me a master at ruining them because I seem normal and then I just zone out and make people feel stupid for trusting me

>>33269824
write again what you just wrote and think about chat delay and how many people write to these girls every day
specially if they are hot
do you think a random message can have that impact on her, specially those generic words you wrote
you sound ridiculous anon

>>33269861
YES. Why don't you believe me? Are you trying to gaslight me?

You can not imagine the stream? She was having a good time, probably with regulars, maybe not. I watched for 10 minutes, then I jumped in and made her do something completely irrelevant for me, and then I went quiet (together with everyone else).

She was laughing, giggling, dancing, being seductive talking to her chat, and then she hopped on the bed and showed her asshole getting no reactions, and then she cut it short. Poor soul probably reconsidered her life choices. I can't imagine showing my asshole to a camera and getting no reactions, like what am I doing

Then I came back the next day and she didn't respond to me while responding to everyone else

>>33269930
bro do you really think you're the main character?
I'm guessing you're a bit of a loner if you can't see the impossibility of the scenario you're describing but try to put yourself at least for 20 seconds in the shoes of the people there or her
do any of the things you wrote would warrant that reaction?
stream was probably on it's last legs when you arrived and people had their fill with her, she maybe even announced she was leaving some minutes before you arrived.
anyways there are plenty of websites that archive chaturbate streams
link the stream here and lets see.

>>33270222
It just ended I can't find it archived. I do put myself in her shoes, that's why I feel the empathy. It boils down to me making it seems like there is a connection but there is none.

She was having a good time and I made her show her asshole to the stream abruptly. She didn't even get a tip. How do you go back to chatting about what you just chatted? I killed her stream.

>>33270262
that's not what happened but whatever bro, feel guilty over nothing some more I guess.

>>33269589 (OP)
You're wasting your time and everyone's time. Just pretend it never happened and stop overcompensating.

>>33270326
Why don't you believe me so you can help me? I don't understand the reluctance? It's not a matter of being the main character or having no agency. You can impact things without being the main character. You are not a bag in the wind

I ruined her day and felt so bad I needed to make it right despite it just being a cam prostitute

>>33270340
I can't help people on how to see ghosts if there are no ghosts to talk about
I can't help you on a problem that you made up in your mind.

>>33269589 (OP)
If you keep doing it she'll start to like you.
I do that to small twitch streamers so that I can play games with women. Just say one thing that they'll remember every stream and eventually they'll end up liking you.

>>33270356
SO IS IT OCD? Am I schizophrenic?

>Be me
>Ruin someone's day
>Feel so bad I overcompensate like this anon said >>33270335 and make matters worse
>I feel horrible and can't move on

>>33270367
are you the pan piano faggot that is delusional about her liking him bvecause he donated 90k to her?

>>33270367
I ruined Amoranth's stream once. She broke the fourth wall as she was licking ears and she said something demeaning to the audience, and I tipped her for it with laughing emojis like all is good, and she loved how "we like it more when she is honest" so she doubled down and the stream died, she looked so stupid

I didn't mean to do it then either. She got no subscribers for the next half hour, she just sat there and licked ears as the stream died. She came back the next day though stronge than ever, I didn't feel bad that time, this cam whore was bad because she showed her asshole then almost got teary eyed

>>33270372
No

>>33270372
No I'm not I don't give them any money. I'm not >>33270400
>>33270388
Wow you ruin a lot of streams

>>33270368
Actually, you have a massive ego. You think that you had a massive impact on her, but she probably forgot about you after 5 minutes and made herself some food.

>>33270413
his ego is ridiculous
he's gonna say next he not buying a brand of car or phone contributed to it's brankrupcy

>>33270422
She almost cried. You're more mentally ill than I am and I am asking for help

Is this fucking real. Damn OP maybe don't be a porn addict, a moralfag, and a self consumed faggot all at once? I can only imagine how much self hate you must have for this to be a problem, jesus christ. Get a hobby that doesn't involve touching yourself or telling degenerate broken women what to do, you won't feel shame if you stop doing shameful shit. Retard

Ok I'm a member of a private chaturbate archive
give me her user name and the day she streamed
if you can't remember the day you can see the date where you made that payment to her stream the next day
I'll look up into her reactions and tell you if you might be missremembering things.

shit happens. i believe you.

>>33270618
you're gonna samefag your thread until my reply >>33270614 is not visible on the front page of the board don't you

>>33270626
i'm not OP. i simply believe him because it sounds very believable. he got a woman to do something degrading for free who probably expected to be paid in front of her other customers. it got awkward and ruined the mood. very believable. it may sound hard to believe (heh) but behind the screen are real humans with an entire universe in their head. they experience life around them as intensive as you do. generally speaking

>>33270670
thing is people show their assholes in chaturbate all the time, it wasn't an out of line requests, a lot of them offer you a full view of their asshole as the first thing you see when you enter to their stream, this sounds made up as fuck
also it does sound like you're op now trying to cover for his larp
hey op comeback and post the date of the stream I'll look it up.

>>33270685
my dude not everyone who disagrees with you is the same person. just judge posts by their own merit and assume every post is made by someone else.

Ok I'm a member of a private chaturbate archive
give me her user name and the day she streamed
if you can't remember the day you can see the date where you made that payment to her stream the next day
I'll look up into her reactions and tell you if you might be missremembering things.

>>33269589 (OP)
good story anon

>>33270340
You did good anon, 10× social credit you just committed an "humiliation ritual" you are stronger for it, you have tapped into her loosh now she is feeding our benevolent interdimensional masters, bravo anon, now it's time to crank it up a notch, go back to her stream make her do it again, next your going to tip and say "there's more where that came from" next you should begin trolling the chat, get creative, before and right before someone calls for a mid to ban you, give another tip, doubling the first one, rinse repeat, ask her silly questions, get into her mind anon

>>33270777
still no username or date huh
made up thread
OP is a lying faggot

>>33269589 (OP)
I won^t read your wall of text. get to the point next time.

Okay, I'll try to imagine what could make her feel this way.

>be of model
>get tips for being hot
>anon asks me to show anus
>anus.jpg
>no one else wanted anus
>no tips
>no tips, no attention
>stream fizzles out
>try again tomorrow
>mfw anon is back

>>33269589 (OP)
>Go on Chaturbate
Just don't, brother.

why don't you rub one out and see how you feel about the situation after?

>>33271764
>Be model
>Sigh, eat lunch, feel like trash, open laptop though to make some neet bucks
>"Hi guys :)))"
>Simps go wild in chat
>Try get donations but getting few, chatting with simps
>Random guy writes "Asshole? :)"
>Get my sex on, hop on the bed and flash my asshole
>Hearing no plings
>Moving sexily, showing asshole, but getting nothing
>Go back to simp chat, see no response
>Finally, anon writes "amazing"
>Sing to myself a bit as I dance, contemplating my life choices
Yeah she probably got fucked up kek

From the first line alone it's clear there's no point bothering to care about the moral intricacies of the situation. You're on fucking Chaturbate, there is no standard of right or wrong or what you "should" do because you're already outside the realm of anything normal. You are correct that you need some sort of mental guidance rather than to spend time considering how you should rectify your interactions with a literal cam whore

>>33269589 (OP)
4chan is so fucking lame and gay now. In the old days you would just post the link to her stream and trolls would make her cry. Then we would laugh and make memes about it.

this could actually be a nice short story if you wrote it down like an authour, /lit/ style

>>33274105
Op means more than usual.
As in, a certain set of behaviors can make even the most trashy camhoes and her simp base cringe

>>33270551
You're autistic and possibly retarded