im a a point where i dont really know what to do im just numb like there is nothing the only times i feel generally happy is when im drinking myself to death but obviously thats just a copin mechanism and im an alcoholic so its just a dopamine trigger
the things i get sad about i dont get sad about anymore
the things that made me happy dont make me happy
i just drink and smoke and like some fucking junkie its what i need to cope
i dont care for my exes
i dont care for my daughters mother or the fact i cant see her anymore because i know that ships been sailed
i do idealize suicide but i know id never do it because i am afraid of whats on the other end what if i am punished for taking the easy route out? 80 years of torment on this plane of existence is nothing compared to eternal damnation
im just at my wits end
i just want to stop being unhappy all the time
i want to die but what i want more is to live a content life
i just dont know what to do anymore

You act as if death won’t come for you any way, sticking it out won’t change shit, either start to look on the bright side of life or kill yourself

>>33272510 (OP)
>I sit around poisoning my body every day, why do I feel like shit?

>>33272510 (OP)
Quit drinking, quit smoking, busy yourself with productive things like a job you at leawst half like and some hobbies, exercise, make friends (NOT drinking buddies, as this will make you drink)

You wonder why you don't feel Human when you are not living a Human life

>>33272697
Also this was kinda cold but I would also say go to therapy/counselling (counselling is somewhat less empathetic but also somewhat more productive so take your pick)

You have a daughter. You gotta stick around as long as you can. You got this. I believe in you, Anon.

Godspeed.

>>33272510 (OP)
I wont read drunkard threads.