this is my first time on /advice/. i was diagnosed with ASD when i was 10 and always knew i was a difficult child. i was reading what the doctors wrote about me. i find that i was first diagnosed with an IQ of 77 wich wasnt a good start to know i was legally super retarded, then the papers go to say that i was emotionally unestable, uninterested by interpersonal relationships, specially naive, that i liked surreal cartoons like adventure time and gumball (well fuck i was 10 what did you expect), that i was late on movement develop (true) and that my writting and power of conceptuality were awful and very much beyond expected (funny because later in life i found myself to enjoy poetry and everything related to culture). it goes to say that everything on me is basically wrong and that i could ever be regressing. that i was always on a surreal world. also goes to say i had way too many irrational and profound fears wich were a show that that personality in a child was off-putting. i can't get to control my impulses, that i am very emotional, that i am very wacky and in general that i was an absolute assburguer waste of human flesh.

the only good thing that it says is that i was very affectuated. but beyond that, they basically told me that i was a futuro schizo. they also planted this idea that i could have epilepsy since both my parents were epileptic when they were children. but i never had an attack myself.

nowadays in adulthood i am having problems with relationships and i take drugs to deal with it. i am still a very emotional and sensitive person.


basically i am kind of having of a identity crisis because i have seen myself as unestable person for a time and now this confirms that i will be forever sick and will never be able to create meaningful relationship. stuck in inceldom until i become a wizard at the age of 30 and blow myself up

how do i cope?

> that i liked surreal cartoons like adventure time and gumball (well fuck i was 10 what did you expect)
What are you like 18?
>how do i cope?
Accept the "it is what it is" mentality and try to make each day better than the last not only for yourself but for others.

Bury all of the emotions and problems deep inside of you, never open up.
Be a Man.

>>33278490 (OP)
I mean, this was obviously not written by someone with the IQ of 77, so I think it might be safe to say that basically all of their conclusions are just as baseless. As an analogy, imagine taking a diesel truck to a mechanic who has only ever worked on or seen gasoline trucks. Dude would think your engine is fucked, low revs, off sound, excess exhaust, would all indicate to his gasoline focused mind/experience that this engine is on its way to death, but it could be perfectly fine, it’s just diesel. You could be perfectly fine too, just don’t go tallying your worth by being bad in F1 racing as a diesel truck.

>t.sperg