somehow got myself into a bad situation

1. secure with full time job
2. gf of 11 years has slowly morphed into a child like autist who only spends time talking to her retarded online friends that are all FtM trans idiots or lesbians.
3. I have been essentially pushed out of romance entirely, no sex allowed situation with a woman who doesn't cook, clean, look after herself and barely does anything other than work a maximum of 30 hrs a week and pays rent.
4. All the things I used to love don't interest me anymore and have essentially passed me by in my early 30s.
5. My only friends don't ever want to hang out with me and barely want me around for anything other than a few minor talents I can somewhat manage.
6. I hit my head very hard on a PA speaker three years ago and have suffered memory loss and cognitive issues.
7. My left tonsil is severely swollen and I don't want to go to the doctor because I have a sever fear of something being majorly wrong with me that will cost me an arm and a leg to get fixed (I have been like this for years.)

Honestly I just want to die every day but I don't want to be some fucking coward loser and my family would severely disapprove. How the hell do I get out of this situation? Does anyone have any ideas cause I'm drawing a giant blank.

>>33280901 (OP)
Go to a doctor for the health issues
Dump your sorry ass gf who doesn't try to satisfy your needs anymore
Get a new social circle
Find out what your new needs are

>>33280901 (OP)
>gf of 11 years
I won't read threads whose premise is that sex is for entertainment rather than for procreation. Bf/gf is merely a framework for evaluating a potenttial marriage partner. People like OP are cases of arrested development and an evolutionary dead-end, like an axolotl in a drying lake.

Literally just dump your gf and things will start falling into place

>>33280901 (OP)
>2. gf of 11 years
You have no self-respect and I'm not even interested in your life after this line