>be me
>diagnosed with Aspergers by psychologist
>family would always say "but you dont seem autistic"

Always knew they were lying

>get new job
>over hear my coworkers talking behind my back

"Yea Anon is definitely Autistic lmao he's fucking weird"

It hurts me, not because of them talking shit, but my family trying to comfort me with lies.

All my copes and delusions crumbled as now I know; no matter how much self improvement I do, I will always be known to the world as a worthless, subhuman, spergcel loser less than.

>>33281344 (OP)
At least your family doesn't constantly tell you "just be normal"

>>33281344 (OP)
Dude. You have to be comfortable in your own skin. I know I have some kind of autism and I know I get judged. Fuck em fuck em all I don't hurt anyone and have a lot of friends. Who cares if some asshole doesn't like me.
Practice social skills and stop worrying.

>>33281344 (OP)
I was diagnosed when I was 25. This shit really sucks, man.

>>33281344 (OP)
Normies are snakes by nature, play into it, they'll be nice to you if you seem erratic/unpredictable becuase they'll feel threatened. Happened to me in high school.

>>33281344 (OP)
people who love you unconditionally will paradoxically often give very poor advice and/or feedback. can't blame em though, they're doing so with good intent.

>>33281344 (OP)
>All my copes and delusions crumbled as now I know; no matter how much self improvement I do, I will always be known to the world as a worthless, subhuman, spergcel loser less than.
LOL. Absurd identification with a label given to you by a priest in a white coat. Use objective measures of performance and value, always.

its a spectrum
aspie so let's say 3 out of 10 on the scale
that's obvious to normies, because they can see your quirks
but they don't know you well or have the knowledge to correctly diagnose you, so they just call it tism

whereas your parents see those quirks as just a small part of you, who is not retarded

>>33281344 (OP)
This may be partly an age thing. People your own age will be far more aware of high-functioning autism than people of your parents' generation. It's really not very long ago that most non-medical people didn't even know it was possible to be autistic without being (literally) retarded.

>>33281344 (OP)
>I'm in this photo and I don't like it

I think about this a lot
Your co-workers and their opinions are very easy to write off, just consider them to be cunts and write them off, treat them like they treat you and whether they get the hint or not is immaterial

As for your family this sounds extremely familiar
Probably got diagnosed as a kid but parents only mentioned off-hand once or twice so it never mattered overall
They're the kind of people who don't know how to handle anyone being slightly different, like
>Wow, X is weird
>"How? I've never met them"
>.....

>>33281982
>>33284001
I imagine it is part the social expectation of "being nice" trumping everything else important

part age, when you are over 50 your energy keeps you from giving enough of a shit to socialize your kids well

Think the rest is their ingrained biological calculus
Modern society means that even if you are an only child, your parents aren't likely at all to starve to death on the streets without your help
Their lizard brains are telling them, like your co-workers you just are not important enough in their lives to treat you equal, because they don't need to survive
They could have told you the truth if you confronted them, but it is always easier to be "nice"

Most you can do is make yourself more important
You're automatically better than people who talk behind your back or lie to your face, anyways