Is adult life just a systematic hell? I feel childhood and adolescence are the only parts of life truly worth living and the rest is just soul crushing wageslaving and dehumanizing rat racing for an empty corporate society. To me the immanence of unconditional beautitude of my past life never leave my mind, It's been at least 7 years (I'm 33) since I live in this state of perpetual nostalgic daydreaming, because my adulti life is nothing but a hell of suffering, illness, loss and isolation.

Yes to everything you said. All you can do is consume slop media and distract yourself while you die.

If you're thinking of suicide you might also choose another less destructive but equally crazy idea like becoming a professional homeless person backpacking europe or sell all your posessions and try to climb K2.

>>33282014 (OP)
Yes

>>33282014 (OP)
No, not necessarily, to your main question.
>my adulti life is nothing but a hell of suffering, illness, loss and isolation.
That is 100% because you refuse to be an adult human being. You are like a butterfly, angry that it can't live like a caterpillar. Childhood and adolescence are largely free of responsibility, while adulthood demands it. Not just responsibility for organizing your everyday life, but responsibility for being, for planning your life and for carrying out your plan.

>>33282014 (OP)
My childhood was hell, only after becoming an adult do I really enjoy life.

I go to a job that I chose, to work with people I like and make money for a home with my lovely wife and my dog, have hobbies I treasure and friends I care for. Yeah, some days I come home exhausted and pass out on the couch, but my wife always makes sure I'm comfy and my dog curls up at my feet. Sometimes shit goes wrong and it's out of my control, but there's always a way to work through it. As an adult you can buy a bottle of whiskey and sit on the roof to stare at the stars, you can put yourself through school to find a career you really want, you can find love, feed stray cats and wear pajamas to the grocery store; I'd say it's a pretty good life.

>>33282014 (OP)
Idk but sex is pretty awesome

>>33282183
>it's your fault that you inherited bad genetics, including physical illness, that predetermined most of your life
>it's your fault that extremely negative random circumstances occurred and caused you permanent trauma and depression
>it's your fault that all your loved ones are dead prematurely
>it's your fault that there is no actual place for you that doesn't cause you suffering in this dystopian hellscape society

>>33282245
Don't put words in my mouth, moron. I wasn't attributing blame. I'm saying you must grow up now and accept responsibility for your life now and in the future. Your excuses are simply your justification for laziness and cowardice.

>>33282274
People like you are npc normies who think they know and can give advice on "what is to be an adult" while never having faced actual hardship and harsh circumstances, calling others coward is also a clear demonstration of being a retard, not knowing what I endured and what lead me to this situation.

I'm already fully an adult being and others consider myself mature in every aspect, intellectually, socially, politically, philosophically, but the chaotic unexpected reality of my life destroyed any possibility of a positive and fullfilled existence beyond my control. If you had a life like mine you probably have killed yourself way before me, nonetheless I'm still alive channeling the only positive energy from my past, but at the same time I'm trying to find some authentic meaning to go on and not dying.

>>33282014 (OP)
just enjoy things, nigga, you liked school or assumed it was what it was and make it for you finding friends and beeing cool? find something nice and roll with it. Choose to be social, choose to be hard-working, choose to be vital.

>>33282048
>If you're thinking of suicide you might also choose another less destructive but equally crazy idea
Not enough people do this
You are suicidal because you live a meek, pathetic, unfulfilling life. If you're gonna throw your life away anyways, why not live a little first?

>>33282014 (OP)
no that's stupid. the worst year of adulthood is better than the best year of adolescence

>>33282014 (OP)
In the ancient past (the whole of human history up to 30 years ago) you didn't have this bullshit called "adulthood."
You had marriage and raising children.
The whole idea of running around the world pointlessly doing hobbies has made people miserable for the 30 years it's been the dominant culture.
It's stupid. People are meant to be together in families and communities.

>>33282431
>People like you are npc normies
LOL. You have no clue and every time you say anything you embarrass yourself.

>>33282976
Such a retarded thing to say, enjoy your cancer and wageslaving burnout, I will enjoy my adolescence over and over again instead.

>>33282014 (OP)
Basically yes. On social media, for years now, it has become viral to share nostalgic tapes, videos and sequences of images about childhood and adolescence, this has now become a collective concrete feeling. People of millenial generation late 80s - early 90s often reflect on these two moments of life, that is, childhood and adolescence in those relative historical periods, and on how they have represented the two most significant and intense parts of their life, from both an emotional and experiential point of view. Everyone is diving into escapism because being and adult in 2025 is indeed nothing but slavery and alienation, the world has become such a horrible entity to exist in that we daydream about being innocent naive child again to survive somehow.

>>33282014 (OP)
Life is what you make of it.
In America, it was made by devils and there is no escape

>>33282014 (OP)
https://youtu.be/lqZehFAwoTM?t=32

It's over as soon as you turn 18 and leave the school system without a well established social circle. You go to work, but you won't make any friends, just coworkers. You join a sports club, same deal. It's over, because everyone already has their social circles locked in since childhood. You'll be nothing more than a coworker, destined to be alone for life. Social life and relationships are like trains you have to catch at the quay, a race against time that takes place during adolescence. And by extension, logically of course, no social life and no women.
But normies don't understand this because they are clueless normies who think you can walk into a bar full of strangers and magically form a social life like in The Sims. Only women can start from scratch and create a social life and get a boyfriend from scratch because of their status as women.

Whether you're 33 or not it doesn't change anything, maybe for the normies, but for you and me Chud, a year is like any other, the sands of time flowing towards nothingness, nothing more.. nothing less.

>>33282976
Utter horseshit. Even though I have money, have achieved many of my dreams and am still achieving many more, none of it compares to when I was 12 playing vidya with the bros

>>33282014 (OP)
I was the happiest when I was in elementary and middle school and it sometimes absolutely crushes me to think I will never experience this high ever again, but oh well life is still worth living.

>>33282431
Not him, but, if you have faced such harsh circumstances that made you start contemplating suicide, what are you even doing here on 4chan on the advice board pointlessly complaining about your life without any inclination to take any kind of advice whatsoever? I've read your whole post and the replies as well and to me it seems that you wanted a pity party. What are you waiting for to just kill yourself? It's better than shitting up (even more) the catalog desu. I just wanted you to know that your thread whose sole purpose is to indulge in self-pity is completely pointless and a waste of everyone's time. Post your angry reply below.

>>33282014 (OP)
I am almost a decade younger and I have been plagued by similar thoughts for the longest time. Although my outlook on adult life is not as pessimistic as yours I do wish I would go back to the times where I was free of responsibilities and full of blissful ignorance to the world's problems. I cannot help but think that those were the happiest times of my life.

I don't think it I possible to go back to this state of mind while having to worry about a job, income, expenses, so without being incredibly rich which is not attainable to the most of us, and if it is it requires either unpresedented luck and/or decades of hard work with no guaranteed success. In other words, it's nigh impossible, and even if you did it somehow, you would not be with your friends who have their own lives and everyday problems. You'd be alone, or with whoever you are with at the time, assuming the money wouldn't change any of you, which is unlikely.

>>33282014 (OP)
Life is about coping
Shit sucks and always will suck, you just live to find coping mechanisms that don't utterly destroy your brain
>Things will get better, everything passes
This is true, but then more bad stuff happens, that passes, then more bad stuff etc.

YOU are responsible for finding and creating your own happiness, it will not be provided and it will not be easily available necessarily
There are people who are blind/deaf/disabled/mutilated/whatever who still haven't killed themselves because they've found ways to become happy despite the circumstances out of their control

If you refuse to do even that, the things people worse off than you are able to, then just kill yourself
Otherwise you'll just live in misery forever and that's infinitely worse than any other outcome

But most likely you won't, what unironically brings you happiness is bitching about how everything sucks and how you wont' do anything to change your life or your brain because it's not your fault the things that you went through, despite the fact that most people are also in your situation in some way, basically I wish you the worst life ever

>>33282183
>le adult responsability meme

So tired of hearing this stupid thing, everything you do as a functioning adult, including having responsability, you can already do in your late teenager years (18-22) if you're not worthlessly dumb. You can actually already do everything you'll do as an adult, but without having the direct oppression and coercion of society into corporate work, which is indeed the only real responsability you feel obligated to have as an adult to not starve.

>>33282014 (OP)
No.
It's like leaving the tutorial portion of a video game into the open world. The bosses or enemies are nastier but the freedom is supposed to compensate for it.

If you're dreaming of childhood like that something is wrong in your life imo and you need to fix it. Adulthood should be more fun than childhood. More stressful but more fun.

Adulthood is worthless unless you have family, anything else is indeed just wageslaving your soul away and consume to cope until you die.

>>33282014 (OP)
That's only if you had a good childhood. I like having money to buy food now, not having to poop in a bucket, having a working shower, electricity etc.

>>33282014 (OP)
>isolation
I mean you have control over that and that really speaks to the rest of it.

If you chose a job that crushes your soul, cant make ends meet (and wont solve it), dont invest into building your community, yeah, you're gonna feel like dogshit all the time.

And now you're trying to rationalize this as the normal experience as though there's nothing you can do to make your life better..

>>33290393
>only if you had a good childhood
Disagree. My childhood was pretty good considering. Im 38 and there's been some rough spots but, still, pretty good.
OP just built a crappy life and is now acting like he didnt.