- Be me
- Show interest in friends interests and opinions / ask questions on their day to day
- Ensure others/friends are okay and try to brighten their day / put them first because I feel comfort in knowing other people are okay
- If they require it provide financial aide

have nothing returned, no hello, no checkup, no interest in me. all my relationships are mostly online, real life ones have previously shown the above.

EDIT:
Supposed to say: real life ones have previously shown the same.

Friendship is not a transaction. It’s unhealthy to identify imbalances or unfairness in your relationships. If you feel you’re doing too much for them, then stop. Don’t continue and whine on 4chan.

>>33285150 (OP)
I'm sorry, friend. I don't have any idea either anymore. It feels that everyone on earth is lame as hell and never engages with life at all. I've recently become convinced that we're just here to suffer and die. Life for me is just the bad parts. The good parts aren't available to me.

>>33285150 (OP)
"If expecting something in return is your reason for giving, you are really not giving — you're swapping. If you receive something in return for your gift, what you receive is a bonus — not a repayment of a debt"

>>33285150 (OP)
They don't deserve you, anon. Find people that do.