I was thinking of taking SSRIs to slow me down before I start talking, giving me time to be aware of what I'm gonna say. Then I stop taking them after the habit is ingrained, since I don't like how meds make me feel overall.

>>33285392 (OP)
Whats your exact problem?
Going on rants?

I just realize most people are so robotic and asleep that theres no point in even considering deeper conversation
So I usually just remain pretty neutral in conversation, i used to be bothered (burnt out) from not telling them how things are and explaining shit
But i realized its mostly a lost cause and I dont have the energy for it, so over time ive learned to just not let it take any of my energy

>>33285392 (OP)
what I did was learn to be a *measured* drinker only, and smoke a ton of tobacco
also: get fit enough and enough sun and nutrition, that helps keep an even keel

>>33285621
How do you deal with the loneliness? Lately I've been venting to AI (all models are Yes Men so it doesn't really do anything... but at least I can hold conversations without them getting weirded out by my mannerisms). Therapy is hitting a plateau too.
>Whats your exact problem?
I speak too fast, no pacing. The way I structure a phrase is also weird. It's like being an ESL but English is your native language. Makes me sound incoherent. I also have very low tolerance to frustration. Minor setbacks make me angry. I rage hard over things that shouldn't really bother me. Too hot-blooded. I think it's just stress though. There are other things but these are the first two that come to mind.

>>33286976
>drugs
If I'm gonna self-medicate I'd rather do it with something that's less likely to kill me

>>33287263
that's what I'm saying, alcohol is safer than SSRIs

>>33287301
>Omegakek
Anon, I'm not OP but you're an alcoholic

>>33287263
Idk ive always kinda been a loner and do get lonely somtimes. But ive learned to enjoy solitude and am okay to be by myself. I still do have some okay friends i see every now and the
>speak too fast, phrasing is weird
>frustration

So whats the problem? People think your weird for talking too fast ? And phrase it weird so they are confused?
I think you will grow out of it if you are aware of it and want to grow and learn to communicate slower and morr structured
I still do get exited and talk fast and talk over others sometimes, and might word everything confusing
But over the years i have gotten a lot better and smoother
Frustration you can also eventually learn to be more chill and humble
Spending time barefoot in nature or in parks will forsure calm you and help
You, as will a good balanced diet.
I also urge you to not take SSRI or other brain frying drugs. Diet and lifestyle are ways to actually heal and grow instead of just bandaid it and make it worse on pharma drugs
>>33287301
Yeah hes right, alcohol or other mild drugs are way better than big pharma slop
You can also vent to a diary, or perhaps some sort of painting , dance, or art
Thats good you are aware of these things and you will find balance and change

Let us know what other questions or advice you might want
And im still wondering what you mean regarding "power level"

>SSRIs
thats very dumb and not advisable at all.
>talk to normies
why would you bother with them? focus on yourself. i dont talk to them either. if they ever assume the right to open their mouth and direct their profane words at me without me giving them my permission, i just stare at them in a rather stark questionable way. 90% of the cases they have to swallow and excuse themselves. if not, then i just say "im sorry?" then they try to repeat their nonsensical bs as if i did not hear them the first time like a broken record, a program, and say "who asked". that just shuts them down for good.

im not in this discount matrix to waste my precious time with lower scripts or programs and you should neither. so why take literal brain deforming drugs to please non-entities?

>>33285392 (OP)
Kinda how I take Adderall. But the effect also goes away eventually. I just need to get the fuck out of this house.