>>33287383 (OP)ok I hate to suggest this because it's really just trading one vice for another. But, I was in the same position as you, drinking up to two wine bottles a day after work, or like 8-9 beers - whatever, it's not a contest, the point is I was an alcoholic.
I ended up trying out kratom. Taking about 1.5g to 2g doses at a time, and like 3-4 doses a day completely killed not only my urge to drink, but also my urge to eat, causing me to lose a bunch of fat and become much healthier compared to when I was an alcoholic.
Ended up getting pretty fit, getting a good job and basically by all accounts turning my life around.
However kratom addiction has some big downsides as well. I lost my sex drive, couldn't get an erection, and I felt comfortably numb but I'd lost the natural perky energy I used to have that made me fun to talk to. It basically turned me into a zombie.
Being a zombie is a much better place than being an alcoholic, but neither is good. I've been weening myself off of kratom (it has unpleasant withdrawals) and getting back to complete sobriety. I'm done with alcohol at this point so once I get off K I will be good to go. But anyway, if your life is really in the gutter, try K as an emergency alternative. Just know nothing in life is free