>>33288174 (OP)I'm really sorry to hear about your mom, man. I lost mine only a couple years ago too. There is no way to deal with bereavement. Bereavement deals with (you). What makes it bearable is accepting there is nothing you can do to I feel the ache and pain. You just let it happen and let the pain take it's course. The only thing you can do is grieve. Whether that's crying, screaming, or even going cold and reclusive or even feeling nothing at all. There's no right or wrong way to grieve.
Not sure where you stand on the issue, but you do have God to take shelter in. You don't have to be alone. And even if that's not your perspective, at least know that you still have (you). And maybe you might not count yourself for much, especially at a time like this, but brother, you gotta remember:
You are 50% mom and 50% dad. Not just physically and genetically, but psychologically too. Everything they were and were not makes you everything that you are today. All of their life force and actions lead to your upbringing, which defined who you are as a person, for better or worse. You ARE mom & dad in an indirect way. You are the sun of the equation. Mom + Dad = You. They live on with you. So long as you draw breath, they are not entirely dead.
So what you do is you acknowledge that you are what remains of mom and dad. You value it. You value yourself. And you make them proud as best you can. You live on and you get yourself to somewhere God in life, and you bring mom and dad with you in spirit. Become a husband, become a father, become a good friend, become a strong man, anything. Then you honor them, and what's more, you continue their hard work by living well.
Good luck and God bless you bro. And may your mother rest in peace.
