Anonymous
6/29/2025, 12:35:10 AM No.33288432
I think I’m mentally ill.
Not a self pity thread but for context due to a long life of terrible events and also chronic loneliness and social rejection I think I might have developed some kind of mental illness. I’m paranoid, misanthropic, distrusting and apathetic all the time. I don’t really feel a full spectrum of emotions when it comes to other people since I view people as cruel ignorant and greedy by default. I only really find myself caring about things like art, books or movies but actual people disgust me, in my everyday life I only do the bare minimum to maintain a normal sized social life and instead spend all my energy working and studying mainly with the sole desire of money, adoration and control.
A lot of these issues stem from my height and the feeling of social disadvantage that came with it, trauma in my developmental years and my father
I dont know what’s wrong with me, misanthrope might be apt but I’m also described as charismatic kind and likeable whenever I actually engage in being social, sociopath might also be apt but I do have emotions they’re just very stunted in regards to people and more focused on things like art or my career. Maybe I’m autistic but I also don’t really feel like I fit the description there either.
Not a self pity thread but for context due to a long life of terrible events and also chronic loneliness and social rejection I think I might have developed some kind of mental illness. I’m paranoid, misanthropic, distrusting and apathetic all the time. I don’t really feel a full spectrum of emotions when it comes to other people since I view people as cruel ignorant and greedy by default. I only really find myself caring about things like art, books or movies but actual people disgust me, in my everyday life I only do the bare minimum to maintain a normal sized social life and instead spend all my energy working and studying mainly with the sole desire of money, adoration and control.
A lot of these issues stem from my height and the feeling of social disadvantage that came with it, trauma in my developmental years and my father
I dont know what’s wrong with me, misanthrope might be apt but I’m also described as charismatic kind and likeable whenever I actually engage in being social, sociopath might also be apt but I do have emotions they’re just very stunted in regards to people and more focused on things like art or my career. Maybe I’m autistic but I also don’t really feel like I fit the description there either.
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