Everything is so tiresome. I'm not in the mood to do a thing right now, it's too much effort. Lately I was thinking that things would get better no matter what, as they would also eventually get bad again. But maybe they won't get any better, in fact it seems like my whole life will be just suffering from now on. I believe I was somehow conditioned to being like that, one reason including traumas gathered through my life, but not only
Is this what anguish means? I was searching for a name for this feeling and this maybe is the most fit to describe it. Most of the things are so scary and bothersome and I'm losing the will to do anything.

>>33288857 (OP)
I won't read I'm soooo laaaazy! threads.

>>33288857 (OP)
All of life is suffering for everyone, you are not special in this way. Struggling against this suffering can yield you moments of joy and wonderment. If you refuse to struggle then you are succumbing to suffering without end or purpose, which is a less tolerable form of suffering because it's not suffering for something and will never yield you any benefits. Life never gets better unless you put something into it. If your load becomes too heavy make connections with others and carry each other's weight. You can choose to suffer for nothing and never see anything happy, or suffer for something and be blessed with happy moments and people who care about you. These are your only two choices in life, not suffering isn't a choice.