I'm a fiction writer and every time I plan a new character I try my best to do thorough research when there's something about them that I do not personally understand. Can be a job, an interest, habit, hobby, sickness, an opinion I don't relate to

Well, my most recent character is a meth addict. I did all the research on its effects, typical mannerisms, tics, slang, what others may notice first, how it feels to the user, how it feels coming down from it, crashing on it, withdrawal, the big horny. You get the gist.

I did my research, concluded that it's something I'd try if given the chance, shrugged it off and got to writing. Now I am three weeks into writing and I have cravings for a drug I know nothing about. At least not practically. I never tried it. I don't even have a plug who COULD provide me with some. He only sells weed, speed, MDMA and all that harmless shit.

I usually practice safer use and now my brain goblins whisper "do meth".

All those memes about readers being sophisticated while writers are absolute losers? They are true.

What do I do now? How do I make my pseudojunkie brain shut the fuck up? This is retarded.

TL;DR:
> make methhead character for my novel
> research meth
> crave meth
> help

>>33289333 (OP)
Do not do meth OP, that shit will ruin your life I'll tell you that much.

Tell yourself it's just a story, it doesn't need to be perfect in every little detail, and hell, using the stuff will actually make things worse for you, specially if you become an addict.

You don't need first-hand experience to write about every little thing, like, you don't need to become a woman to write about a female character, for example.

>>33289344
I did as much research as I could so my worry is not with an inability to portray it right. I am confident that I get it as right as somebody can who'd never tried it.

It also means I am aware of the dangers and that in most cases it goes wrong rather than right. Even if you tend to be careful with this sorta shit

Maybe I just need to wait this one out. Or speed in a safe environment with friends. Only friends. Compensate, if you will (never using longer than two days in a row to not get addicted to any shit)

thank you for your response, anon.

>>33289362
No problem brother. Please take care and don't do anything hasty or dangerous, your mind and your life are more important.

Most other people:
>Get a tulpa of Pinkie Pie
This guy
>Get a tupla of methamphetamines
>Like not a guy who does methamphetamines. But like just methamphetamines themselves. He got a headmate that's just the meth jitters.

>>33289409
I'm going to manifest this. I'll get into tulpa bullshit and my first headmate is going to be methamphetamine

in my head, meth is going to have a voice

anon, you're a genius

>>33289333 (OP)
I won't read threads that are creative writing exercises, even if they are clever self-reflexive ones like this.

>>33289681
you somehow made this both an insult and a compliment.

>>33289333 (OP)
Why can't you research a character who is tempted to do something incredibly stupid and self-destructive but successfully overcomes the impulse and becomes well-adjusted and normal?

>>33289949
nigga this type of character is literally included

>This is safe use bro
>Wired his brain to want to do meth now
Yeah, safe

>>33291310
the voices in my head are unrelated to my drug use