I don't want to feel anymore. Every single time i find a small shimmer of hope in my life, it is crushed right infront of me. Every relationship I have ends in disaster, every friend abandons me, every idea fails. Honestly I just want to walk this earth as an emotionless machine so that I can stop suffering through the constant cycle of hope and failure. How do I detach from everything and just stop feeling and caring.

>>33291926 (OP)
Simply search for the metric and meet it/distort it.

There should be a manual of some sort for diagnosing it.

But is this truly what you want?

>>33291937
I've come to the conclusion that people like me who are just cogs to serve some other persons purpose should be allowed not to feel. Being self aware of the fact that you will never be loved, you will never achieve anything of note, and you are simply a small ant who will wither away and die when it's purpose is served is a more painful experience than not being able to feel. It reminds me of when my dad broke his back and became addicted to opiotes. He said that the drugs will kill him eventually, but the pain of suffering without them is an even worse fate. Thats the way I see it, why allow myself to suffer for something I can't change or fix. I've given up trying to be happy, the next best thing is to just nuke my brain so I never have to feel anything again.

>>33291926 (OP)
You must be over 18 to use this website.

>>33291926 (OP)
I think its genetic, not entirely sure. You can larp as a psychopath, but you'll still probably feel empathy for people.

>>33291960
This is basically what I want. I don't want to feel empathy, or anything really. It would be a lot easier for me to survive and maybe one day thrive, knowing that I literally cannot feel anything for an outcome or person. I feel like this is a good reason why psychopaths are successful, they are incapable of developing attachments that make people weak

>How do I become a legitimate psychopath
this post screams 12 cringe

>>33291972
I know it sounds cringe but having "feelings" as a nobody is a painful experience. Having to go through a multitude of failures in every facet of your life it becomes really hard to carry that emotional burden over time. I just want to feel nothing so outcomes cannot add to this weight i feel like most people in my position would want the same thing

>>33291926 (OP)
>>33291971
you make me ashamed to be the same species as you

>>33291985
I'm not going to go deep in to my life, but it's been harder than most peoples by a long shot.

failures are what drives a human to become better, you are just wallowing in your own sorrow and expecting someone else to come along and pull you out of it, the amount of self loathing low IQ retards that come to this board asking questions that have such obvious answers really does blow my mind, how the fuck do you people exist day to day without someone holding your fucking hands i have no idea.

I never wanted anyone's help I never asked for anyone's help, I overcame everything myself.
People like you are beneath me and you act like it, calling yourself a "nobody" goes to show you don't even value yourself, wanting to come a "Legitimate psychopath" just shows you have no idea what you want, just admit you have no idea what you're doing, stop lying to yourself because I know you are, you are what is wrong with the world but only you can change yourself.

I'm quite frankly disgusted that I've spent time typing to you.

>>33291926 (OP)
It's generally a liability, so i'd see why you wouldn't want them but i don't think we can help.

>>33292041
I don't think you ever faced hardship.

>>33291926 (OP)
You do realize that psychopaths don't have it as easy as you think, right?
Life sucks without any meaningful relationships, and without empathy, it's way too easy to fuck up the relationships you depend on because you physically can't care about other people like you should.

Instead of trying to eliminate the emotions that tell you when something is fucked up, try making things less fucked up, you lazy fuck.

>>33291926 (OP)
Watch this video anon, I believe you'll find it insightful
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TkcDe8pdPNc

>>33291926 (OP)
>How do I become a legitimate psychopath
>I don't want to feel

Then you won't enjoy being in the psychopathic spectrum. Boredom is viscerally painful, and all you feel as a psycho is pure boredom nonstop 24/7 it never ends, which means the mental aching never stops. All that helps is having a ceaseless and relentless tidal wave of thoughts, and thoughts about thoughts, and those never end either. Not a single emotional stimulus ever breaches your mind, all you can do is pretend to feel things and fool people that you connect with them. In fact people don't even feel like people, just objects with human faces. You spend life feeling like only you exist, and that's all. And it's fucking boring. Life feels like a carnival with no participants.