I'm "only" 25 yet I've been struggling with ED since I was 18. Somehow it doesn't feel like sexuality should be a part of my life. With 18 my balls started to extremely hurt and it only went away a few years later without an explanation. With 21 I was so desperate that I've started masturbating for hours on Adderall, even destroying my Ass with a dildo for the lack of being able to have actually functioning sexuality.
With 22 I used some sextoys and since then I have a burning sensation down there (doctors could never diagnose anything, they claim I'm fine).
I still have a libido, yet have turned to God and became a firm believer so I am abstaining from porn and masturbation aswell which doesn't quite help with pursuing healthy sexuality.

I just want this pain to end but don't seem to know how. Even tried some medical courses but they never worked.

Is it over?

>>33300680 (OP)
>Is it over?
Maybe. Perhaps. Likely. Could be. Looks like it. Chances are high.

>>33300680 (OP)
>even destroying my Ass with a dildo for the lack of being able to have actually functioning sexuality.
that's not a lack of sexuality, friend. slutty bottom boys like you just aren't meant to have big show offy erections like real alpha tops get. you're meant to find satisfaction with your vice tight bussy. if you tried the real thing once i bet a lot of confusion would clear up for you instantly

>>33300680 (OP)
I'm 22 and suffer the same problem, similar story with going gay too. I had the burning sensation a few times, thankfully it wasn't something that lasted too long though. I don't know, man. You probably have to just get off of image boards, switch to a dumb phone, and get a p**n blocker. That's the way to do it. It's gonna be hard, but you're going to have to actually restrict yourself from p**n, technologically. I don't think it's over, you just have to go a good three months of no easy digital technology, maybe go to an addict group. It's embarrassing but probably worth it for your life, and other ppl will have similar stories to yours.

>>33300680 (OP)
I won't read dick threads.

>>33300735
The thing is I have tried that to a degree, went almost 3 month without porn, then relapsed a bit and am now going again at 1,5 months. I feel that all my degen fetishes are disappearing and I've gotten like a few more boners out of nowhere so I guess something still works but it's not sustainable. Maybe it's a psychosomatic thing because I'm anxious basically all the time and have had some slightly traumatic stuff happen related to sexuality.
I'm trying my best, also with nutrition but it feels like my life is slipping away. I would love to find a girlfriend to marry someday but the thought of being unable to have sex kills my confidence to a point where I'm just weird socially