26 m
fall last year I got head from a femboy. I was 6 months into a relationship at the time. I’m very much in love and still together with her, and I’ve mostly decided not to tell and move on from it. Been dealing with it in therapy since.

I was in agony for months over it and it still flares up now and then from time to time. Thankfully got tested twice and came back clean both times. I want a serious future with this person, but telling her would ruin everything. We’re each other’s firsts and I’d do anything for her. But the pain of knowing what I did can be very brutal.

Do I have the right to continue on if I have changed for the better?

How do you end up getting head from a faggot if your girl puts out? Genuinely explain yourself. I want to know how this even occurs. Why do people put themselves in situations they know they'll regret? How? I know the answer is immaturity and impulse, but what choices did you make that led you to oral sex with a homo?

Dude just live with your mistake and forgive yourself

>>33302431
we were having problems and for nearly that entire time could not have actual sex. we did figure it out and now have a very good love life. and yea i genuinely think it was an impulsive decision on my part and an old habit resurfacing. When I was incel and struggling meeting someone I got into grindr and meet younger men to fool around with. did not consider the consequences at all unfortunately

>>33305762
>he fell for it

>>33302365 (OP)
What you are seeking is forgiveness. That's why you see a therapist and still the shame persists. You know you cannot seek it from the GF due to the immense repercussions. And yet you are still wanting, begging for forgiveness.

Go to God. Seek a priest, and ask for confession.

>>33302365 (OP)
>>33305762
Nigga got gay head and feels guilty LOL
Does she know you're bi? If yes just say you experimented before but stopped once you two got more serious.

>>33306333
nah I haven’t told a soul that

>>33302365 (OP)
You only want to tell her so that the pain and guilt goes away. But it won't. You cheated and that's something you'll have to live with.

Telling her will hurt her and fuck it all up. Just don't do it again and be a good bf to her. Don't fuck it up any more than you already have.

>>33307250
That’s been my mindset but I do feel evil for having betrayed her.